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10 Weeks & Counting

2012-01-26T13:41:00.000-08:00

Okay, so I have 2.5 months left of this pregnancy but when you break it down to weeks... 10 weeks sounds WAY TOO SOON! Yikes!

Today I had a doctor's appointment with our OB, Dr. Flath. I just want to say, we have amazing doctors. What a blessing these professionals are to us! As mentioned before, Dr. Flath is my neighbor's dad and he treats me with such care and genuine concern. Meeting with him just feels like visiting with a comforting dad.

Luckily, today's visit was very normal and routine. Most of my visits with our doctors are everything but normal for me and I usually leave overwhelmed and emotional. So it was nice to just have a regular appointment. Great news, my recent blood work looked great and I don't have gestational diabetes. He said the only bad news is... "You've gained 8 lbs since your last visit (4 weeks ago). So... just watch out for that." haha I could tell he was trying to be tactful with his words as he was basically telling a highly hormonal, donut eating... fast food craving prego woman that she needs to "watch out for that." Note taken. Although, I would like to add that he said I am measuring bigger... so I attribute this weight gain to the fact that we just simply make big babies... or that's just denial talking.

Remember how we went through all of those hoops with the Oregon Health Plan? Well... it's not over! It turns out that when I switched plans from Providence to CareOregon in order to have the hospital covered, I switched to a plan that my OB does not take. Bleh. With such a large team of doctors, it is so hard to coordinate a plan that will cover all of them AND the hospital. The front office staff told me to talk to Dr. Flath about the situation. When I explained, he took me to meet Ellen, the billing specialist in his office. She was well aware of my situation and already working on it. Dr. Flath looked at me and said "we will try to do everything we can, but just know I will make it work and continue with your care no matter what." What a guy and what a relief!

After today, I will start seeing Dr. Flath every two weeks. I am also scheduled to have one of our big 3+ hour appointments with the Pediatric Cardiologist, Dr. King and Perinatologist, Dr. Merrill next Thursday. They will be doing another ultrasound, fetal echo and make sure nothing has changed. I will also be meeting with Dr. Larrabbee, a Neonatologist with NW Newborn. She will be the doctor taking care of our baby in the NICU.

At Dr. Flath's office, I checked in with a super sweet woman named Molly. She was so fantastic and easy to talk to. When I was trying to figure out the situation with our insurance, she quickly pieced together that I was not a routine patient and that my baby had complications. You could tell she felt really bad and even said, "You're so positive!" It was at that moment that I stepped back and realized, I AM REALLY POSITIVE! I have noticed a change in my attitude about our baby's condition. I just feel so much peace and excitement for Zoe's arrival. No, it's not all rainbows and smiley faces... but when you really get down to it, it is such a beautiful time for us. Zoe could not have more people caring for her, even if she tried. She will be welcomed with so many loving arms and prayers on her behalf.

How blessed our we?

As my 2.5 year old would say... "SOOOO MUCH!"

Seoul Searching Mama

2012-01-25T15:46:00.000-08:00

My cousin Elisha over at Motivated Mamas came to visit this last week and gave me a huge boost of motivation to revamp my adoption blog efforts. About a year and a half ago, I started a blog called Seoul Searching Mama, sharing my birth family search and reunion experience, while also exploring the ins and outs of the adoption community. It has been such a lovely experience to interact and even help other adoptees with their birth family searches, support waiting children and parents... all while education myself on everything adoption.

The creation of this blog has taught me so much about myself. I have so many layers that I never even knew about! I am a daughter that has been blessed with two families, an adoptee, a proud mother and wife... and my most recent discovery, I am Korean.

I have recently posted several new articles... feel free to check it out here!

Adopted February 12, 1987

Birth Family: found January 12, 2011

My Girl

2012-01-24T22:25:00.000-08:00

Londyn Joy

is...

Pure

Silly

Witty

Smart

Sassy

Sweet

Cuddly

Beautiful

Motherly

Thoughtful

Mischievous

Unpredictable

and...

the most precious gift I have ever been given.

Here is a pretty normal conversation on an average day... simple moments like this make life so sweet.

Here is my little goofball, right after she says to me "this pineapple is disgusting!"

I must have done something right to have her in my life.

Wedding Bells

2012-01-23T15:24:00.000-08:00

My brother Eric and Sarah got engaged Thanksgiving weekend and were married for time and all eternity in the Portland Temple this last Friday, January 20th. I had the opportunity to help plan the wedding with my now SIL Sarah. Although we didn't have much time to plan, it turned out to be a beautiful event. Of course, all weddings involve stress but the day ended up being lovely. We had fabulous food, decor and best of all- a new addition to the family!

Sarah's colors were royal blue, white and silver. Andrew was one of Eric's groomsmen, and at the last minute- I became a 7 month prego bridesmaid... yikes! I looked like a big ole' blueberry!

I also got to do Sarah's hair and makeup which couldn't have turned out more beautiful. She was a radiant bride!

The whole family pitched in and helped transform our cultural hall into a vintage winter wonderland. We hung yards and yards of white tulle along with strands of twinkling lights on the ceiling and walls. With the help of MANY ironing hands, we had lots of gorgeous blue and white linens and chair covers. My mom and SIL Rebecca created an adorable ice cream bar with a fabulous wedding cake. On top of that, Hors d' oeuvres and hot cocoa, hot cider and lemon water were served.

My friend Erin and her husband Sean provided their DJ services, which truly made the night! Everyone danced, danced and wished they could dance even more! I think my mom outdid everyone on the dance floor.

What a wonderfully exhausting weekend!

Daddy's Girl

My dapper man

Waiting for the Bride & Groom at the Temple

Silly girl

With all the wedding planning, Londyn and I have had lots of conversations about the Temple. She has declared that she is marrying her cousin Kyler in the Temple, of course.

Dancing with cousins

Lulu's favorite dance partner... her daddy.

Redneck Wine Glasses

2012-01-18T09:49:00.000-08:00

At the blame of Pinterest and my brother's wedding, I have become mildly obsessed with mason jars.

It is the endless possibilities that tug at my creative heartstrings!

I decided to make these adorable Redneck Wine Glasses as part of the centerpieces for the wedding. Originally, I saw an ad on Craigslist by a guy that was trying to sell these for 12 bucks a piece. Yowza! Too bad I made them for less than $2 each! I love these glasses because they have so many uses! You can add them to your table setting for everyday use, add fresh or faux flowers for a super quick and easy arrangement, fill with chocolate and pair with a bottle of Martinelli's for gift giving or even add candles to brighten up your mantle! Like I said... endless possibilities!

WHAT YOU NEED:

1. Mason Jars - $10-$11/dozen

2. 4'' Glass Candle Stick Holders - $1 at Dollar Tree

3. E6000 Craft Adhesive - $3.99 at Michael's

4. Stack of large books

INSTRUCTIONS:

Step 1: Wash and thoroughly dry bottom of mason jar

Step 2: Turn candle stick holders upside down and apply a generous layer of E600 adhesive to rim.

Step 3: Firmly center the glue end of the candle stick holder to the bottom of jar.

Step 4: Gently place large books on top of your upside down glasses.

Step 5: Leave glasses to dry for at least 1 hour. I like to let them set overnight, just to be sure!

Enjoy your fabulous Redneck Wine Glasses and remember these are only hand washable!

Andy Goes to the Dentist

2012-01-17T20:46:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, the Mr. had dental work done... and here's the fat lip they gave him.

Daddy Snuggles

2012-01-17T20:39:00.000-08:00

After Lulu's bath tonight, she said she was cold and wanted to snuggle Daddy. He took a break from homework and read poems from Where the Sidewalk Ends in our "big bed".

Lulu couldn't get enough Daddy time and was bummed when he had to get back to his studies.

She really is a lucky girl.

{27 weeks}

2012-01-15T21:55:00.000-08:00

It amazes me that 27 weeks have already passed since we found out I was expecting baby #2. Especially after finding out about Zoe's HLHS at 20 weeks, time has really flown. I have kept busy with the everyday chaos of raising a family, working part-time, planning my brother Eric's wedding... all while my entire body is aching and stretching in every direction, sleep is a thing of the past and keeping my house even remotely clean is a joke.

Early on in our marriage, Andrew and I lived in a rabbit hole of a basement apartment in a super sketchy part of South Provo (We still miss that apartment). We used to write cheesy notes on our bathroom mirror and one day when I was barely prego with Londyn, he drew this on our mirror. I was barely showing at the time and thought this was hilarious. Little did I know then that this was an exact depiction of my pregnant self. Big boobs... big belly... big booty and just about BIG everything else!

This picture brings back so many memories.

Lately, my time with Londyn feels even more special and precious. It hit me today that she is growing so fast and there are things that we will never be able to do with her again... for example, Andrew was tossing her upside down in a way he has been doing since she was just tiny and she was almost too tall to even flip over. She is growing out of some stages and constantly entering new ones! It's hard to let go of her being a baby... I suppose that's why people keep having babies! After wanting to have another baby, we got pregnant and the fear set in. I started to second-guess whether we were really ready to have a family of four! I am finally feeling like it is time. We can do this and I know we will be blessed.

I had Lasik eye surgery about 6 years ago and haven't had any troubles with my vision until this last year. I have noticed that I can't see much from a distance and sometimes things are blurry when I'm driving, especially at night! With my state insurance, pregnant women get free eye exams and glasses if necessary. So I decided to go get them checked. It turns out that I have a leftover prescription from the Lasik, as they show astigmatisms in both eyes - just as I had before. Getting them repaired with Lasik is out of the question for pregnant and breastfeeding women, so I snagged a free pair of glasses for the time being. I am still getting used to them but it's a fun new accessory to play around with!

Here's my growing belly at 27 weeks. As ginormous as I feel, I think it is actually a bit smaller than when I was prego with Lulu... knock on wood.

Bullwinkles

2012-01-15T21:28:00.000-08:00

My nanny/high school dance team coach/second-mom Sue Anne has twin girls that turned 4 this last week. We were able to go to their birthday party at Bullwinkles last Sunday and had such a fun time! Londyn loves True & Vivian but she was shy with all of the new people there. We had fun playing games, eating pizza and visiting with friends.

Andrew took Londyn for a joy ride on the go-cart track and although hesitant, Londyn was super excited... even though she had no idea what she was about to experience...

Let's get this show on the road...

This is probably the only semi-clear photo I snapped of Lulu not completely terrified... not so much a fan.

What just happened?

It's OVER - YAY!!!

Sister to Sister

2012-01-12T20:41:00.000-08:00

Lulu and I were in the bathtub and my belly was moving all over the place...

I said, "Lulu LOOK! Baby Zoe is moving in mommies tummy!"

Her jaw literally dropped as she stared at my big round belly for a good 5 seconds.

She then threw her hands up in the air and said...

"NO! I don't like! I don't like baby Zoe anymore! GET OUT!"

After we got out, she went and told her dad baby Zoe was in the bathtub and she doesn't like her anymore.

Am I in for it, or what?

Londyn Lately {30 months}

2012-01-11T17:15:00.000-08:00

It has been way to long since I have updated on little Lulu. She makes me smile, laugh and thank God every day for her little spirit in my life.

Most used phrases:

"I LOVE YOU... SOOOO MUCH" and sometimes she adds "to the moon and back!"

"Ooookay" - in response to EVERYTHING

"Please" "Thank you" "You're welcome"

"Merry Christmas" - just before I close her door for bedtime

"I go shopping?" - Most every time we leave the house

"Nowwwww!" - as she scrunches her nose and points her finger

Me: "Londyn, where's baby Zoe?"

Lulu: "At home... with Jesus."

I have no idea where she got this... but she's absolutely right!

Lulu has always been an easy-going eater. She is rarely picky about anything we give her. Although, she does ask for "Donald's nuggets and fries" on a daily basis. As of lately, she can't handle any mess of food on her. If she has a dot of ranch dressing on her hand... look out, a storm is brewin!

Londyn is still having troubles at dance class. She is constantly dancing at home and with her cousins but when it comes to class, she is very clingy to me and doesn't always listen to her teacher. I'm going to give it a couple more weeks and if she is still struggling, we will take a break until next Fall.

Here she is at Best Buy, gettin' down with the Just Dance game for Wii

For Christmas, Auntie Nell gave Londyn her very own dress up box. It is filled with dresses, wands, tiara's, hats, jewelry and her favorite SHOES! She plays dress up every day and even her babies get makeovers!

Upcycle: Car Stereo Receiver - PART II

2012-01-09T16:21:00.000-08:00

Here's the finished product!

Upcycle: Car Stereo Receiver

2012-01-08T19:04:00.000-08:00

Andrew is ALWAYS in the midst of a new project. Most ALL of his projects involve upcycling old electronic parts and pieces to make new and useful creations. In this video he takes an old car stereo and turns it into a fully functional sound system for his workstation in the garage.

I am always amazed with the way Andrew's brain works. I see an old computer and think "what a piece of junk"... he see's an old computer and thinks "Merry Christmas to ME!" As a matter of fact, our neighbor Bobby was loading up an old big screen TV to be taken to the dump and we just happened to be pulling into our driveway at the same time. It was the motherboard (haha... get it, motherload? Uh oh. Andrew's geek humor must be rubbing off on me) of one man's trash is another man's treasure.

I am so glad that my husband can turn his talent into a hobby without breaking the bank!

Meeting Dr. Merrill

2012-01-05T13:33:00.000-08:00

After two nights in a row of zero sleep, I rolled out of bed to my 5:45AM alarm this morning. After dropping Londyn off at Auntie Becca's, Andrew and I headed to Emmanuel Maternal & Fetal Medicine for what turned out to be a 4 hour appointment. First off, we had an in-depth ultrasound, followed by an echo-cardiogram with Dr. King, our pediatric cardiologist. Since it has been over a month since we last saw and first met Dr. King, I had a lot of questions. He was able to give us fabulous news and calm our fears. He told us that we could hold Zoe for up to an hour after birth until needing to be taken to the NICU for medication to keep the PDA (Patent Ductus Arteriosus) open. The NICU is open 22 hours a day for us to be with her and HOLD her! The Norwood Procedure (1st out of 3 surgeries) will be performed 3-4 days after birth. She will then be in the PICU for 2.5-3 weeks (much shorter than we originally thought!). While in the PICU, they have private rooms and sleep rooms for parents. Andrew and I counted out all of the doctors involved in sweet little Zoe's journey already and we have an Obstetrician, Pediatric Cardiologist, Pedatric Heart Surgeon, Perinatologist, Neonatologist and Pediatrician. Talk about a team of care! That's SIX medical professionals all working to give our baby a successful start at life.

All wonderful news!

After seeing Dr. King, we were able to meet Dr. Merrill (perinatologist). He is a good friend of our Obstetrician, Dr. Flath and all of the amazing things we have heard about him were true! He reminds me of my dad. Kind, funny and just a great guy. Dr. Flath and Dr. Merrill will be sharing all of our obstetrical care.

We will follow up with all of these doctors in a month!

Here is our precious baby Zoe.

She looks so much like Londyn as a newborn in this picture.

Date Night

2012-01-03T22:08:00.000-08:00

How to achieve the best date night with your man? Easy. Cheesecake Factory & shoe shopping!

I love how my husband appreciates a new pair of shoes ALMOST as much as I do. I love his pick of vibrant retro kicks. As for me, I finally gave into the cute and comfy trend of TOMS. It really does pay to wear a size 3 in kids... a $20 difference in price! Can we just have a moment of silence for this fabulous plaid print?

My Baby

2012-01-01T22:34:00.000-08:00

Thoughts...

When choosing names, we had several girl names that we really liked... but once we found out it was a girl, there was no question. Her name is Zoe. Not only do I love how short, sweet and fun the name Zoe is... it is of Greek origin, meaning Life. I can't think of a name more fitting for a little girl whose life is already so precious and divine.

Last Sunday, a family in our ward brought their 4 day old baby girl to church for the first time. As I was sitting quietly in our pew waiting for the service to begin, I was mesmerized by the sight of this husband and wife, with their new baby. I leaned into Andrew and started to cry. Don't get me wrong, I was so happy for them, but it was hard to witness a moment that will not be so easy for us. I have tried so hard to be hopeful and positive about what is to come for baby Zoe, but it is a constant struggle. I know that the normalcy of bringing a new baby home from the hospital just a few days after delivery, being overwhelmed and woken up multiple times during the night... family visiting to see the new baby and then showing her off in church will not be the case for us. Seeing that healthy new baby at church brought me joy and sadness all at the same time.

I had another appointment with Dr. Flath (OB) this last Thursday. Last time we brought Lulu and she was so restless that Andrew could barely even concentrate, so I decided to go by myself this time. Here were the questions and answers and I wanted at this appointment:

Q: Andrew starts school two weeks before our due date, is there any way we can have the baby sooner so he can be more available during my c-section and baby's first surgery?

A: We want baby to be as developed and strong as possible for birth and her first surgery, so having the baby earlier than 39 weeks would be out of the question, unless an emergency requires it. We will tentatively schedule the c-section for Monday, April 9th as we still need to coordinate schedules with Dr. King (Pediatric Cardiologist) for her first heart surgery.

Q: What will happen after the baby is born?

A: Baby will be taken to the NICU right away.

Q: When will I get to see my baby?

A: In the NICU after recovery from the c-section.

Q: When will I be able to hold her?

A: Mostly likely not while in the NICU... which will be from the time of birth to recovery after her first surgery.

The last question was the cause of my tears the entire drive home... I am starting to dread each appointment. Overall, more answers will come after meeting with our Pediatric Cardiologist and Perinatologist at our appointment next Thursday.

Rarely do I ever remember my dreams beyond a few minutes after I wake up, but I had a dream a few nights ago that I just can't get off my mind. The details are fuzzy but here it goes... Andrew and I were in what seemed like a foreign country. It was chaos and the streets were covered with people. I was searching the streets and finally found our baby Zoe in a crib. She was so tiny and her big beautiful eyes looked straight up at mine. She smiled the instant she saw me. I grabbed her in my arms but for some reason I wasn't allowed to take her with me. I ran to find Andrew and told him about her. I was so excited for him to see her. I told him she was so small but had hair as long and curly as Londyn. When we went back to see her, she was still there with her big brown eyes and big smile. We both just snuggled her. We returned for days just to hold her and be near her. I had so much love for her and it was painful to leave her each time.

And then... I woke up.

I don't know if this dream was just a reflection of the fear I have for being away from my baby in the hospital... but I can't stop thinking about it. It sounds crazy, but it feels like I really saw her and held her. She isn't even born yet and I already miss her.

Maybe it's just all the hormones...

Christmas 2011

2011-12-27T18:05:00.000-08:00

Stockings

Presents

Brunch & Presents @ Grandma & Papa Milne's

After church, we all met back up at my parents' house to stuff our bellies with a delish ham and prime rib dinner. The cousins had their traditional gift exchange. Londyn got a Pillow Pet from "her Mary" which she loves! My dad gave the kids a Taylor Swift karaoke DVD and the whole family got in on the off key activity.

It was a perfect Christmas. We have been so blessed this year and especially this holiday season. I always knew we were loved, but after this last month - it is undeniable.

I am still so emotional over the insanely thoughtful Christmas Elf who stopped at our doorstep last week, and to our surprise- that wasn't the end of anonymous gifts to our family. When we returned home on Christmas Eve night, we saw another large gift bag. When we opened it up- there was an envelope of gift cards, a large stuffed Eeyore and a bunch of Disney princess figurines for Londyn. We were speechless.

To top it all off, our Bishop brought Andrew into his office on Christmas day and told him that the ward members have been thinking of us. He then gave Andrew an envelope of gift cards for groceries and Target.

The generosity from friends, ward members and family is overwhelming. We are not alone in this journey. I have especially been concerned about all of the extra spending that will come when baby Zoe arrives, and all of these gift cards are an answer to my prayers.

Merry Christmas and thank you all for giving our family hope.

And the envelope please...

2011-12-27T17:15:00.000-08:00

This entire pregnancy has been completely different than the first, so our thoughts all along have been that this baby is a boy. We have been waiting since November 25th to open THE ENVELOPE and the time finally came on Christmas Eve night. It was 10pm and we had just gotten home from spending the evening with family... it was way past Lulu's bedtime. Here it goes...

As you can see, we are shocked! It's a GIRL! Her name is Zoe and we cannot wait to have another little princess in our hearts and home.

Christmas Eve

2011-12-27T17:12:00.000-08:00

For Christmas Eve, we started off with our annual exchange of new pajamas. Andrew got me the perfect jammies, I got him a t-shirt with a "joke" that only a nerd could understand and Londyn got a pink giraffe print set.

We then spent the evening with my brother Kevin's family and my parents. Every year, Kevin and Bec host Christmas Eve Bingo and yummy homemade soup! We had so much fun playing Bingo and everyone loved their prizes. We then stayed until 10pm playing games, hanging out and having a blast with the Milne family!

"Santa" and Rudolph made a brief appearance outside the house in the dark night. Londyn could not believe it! She ran and told Papa that she saw Santa and then showed Andrew that Santa was just outside the window.

My oldest niece Mikayla and I. I love my nieces and nephew!

The Christmas Elf

2011-12-21T22:24:00.000-08:00

I am in awe of the anonymous Christmas Elf who blessed our family with such generosity today.

It is a rare occasion, but I am genuinely speechless.

You are so much more than a Christmas Elf, but an Angel to our family.

From the bottom of our hearts, thank you.

Service

2011-12-20T17:55:00.000-08:00

It has been a rough month for us, but we have had so many opportunities to be grateful and happy! With all of the testing, doctor's visits and waiting for news... the holidays have brought a peaceful spirit that has been the most beautiful distraction from all the stress and worry.

I just want to say that we are forever humbled by all of your many acts of service for our family. We have received meals, countless plates of goodies on our doorstep, flowers, heartfelt notes, e-mails and text messages of love and support, offers to babysit Londyn and even friends taking me out to lunch just to get out and away.

After lots of thought and prayer, we have decided that after winter break Andrew will no longer be working while he is in school. We feel that this is an important time for him to focus on school and for us to prepare for the birth of our baby in April. This way he will have a little more time for studying, going to appointments with me and just spending time together. I am really looking forward to taking as much pressure off of Andrew as possible. It won't be easy but right now, it is the best decision for us.

Last week, he explained to his supervisor at work about our situation. His job has been so accommodating over the last few years. They have constantly worked with Andrew missing work for monthly drills with the Marines and always-changing school schedules. They even told him that if he ever wanted to come back, there would be a job waiting. Andrew's work ethic has always been one of my favorite qualities. He has had three different employers since we've been married and they all have just loved him. At his work Christmas party yesterday, each employee was given a $75.00 gift card to Fred Meyer. His manager Frank came up to him, expressed how sorry he was about our baby and that it wasn't much but he wanted Andrew to have his bonus. This man doesn't know our family very well, but without much thought was so willing to give. It makes me so emotional.

This Christmas will always have a special place in my heart. I will forever be reminded of it's true meaning.

Big News!

2011-12-20T17:10:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was filled with big news and I am just itching to share!

A few weeks ago, Andrew had an interview with Intel for a Manufacturing Technician position. Intel was recruiting at the college he attends for students getting their AAS degree in 2012. He felt good about the interview but it didn't make the weeks of waiting any easier. Yesterday he received a phone call with an official job offer, which will begin in September. He will be working 12 hour shifts, Wednesday through Friday and every other Saturday. Not only will he be working in the industry he has always dreamed of, he will be employed by a great company. They offer their employees ample benefits and opportunity for growth.

I can't even begin to express how proud I am of Andrew for getting this job. Employment isn't easy these days and he already has a job lined up 9 months before he's even finished with his degree! This job is such a blessing for us right now! God is truly watching closely over us during this time. Our baby will be born in April and just five months later we will have a steady income AND medical, dental & vision insurance. The best part of all? Watching him succeed and follow his dreams.

This getup is what the Mr. will be wearing at work every day. Cute... eh?

Now... for the rest of our big news!

I got a call back from our genetic counselor and the results on the test for DiGorge Syndrome were finally in. The test came back normal! This completes the results from the amniocentesis and I am so relieved that our baby's congenital heart defect is not genetically related. What a relief! This reduces the risk of further complications with the Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome. This positive news is just what we needed. I was starting to doubt the possibility of more than just bad news. We WILL get through this and come out a stronger family unit.

O' Christmas Tree

2011-12-16T18:58:00.000-08:00

We planned on getting a beautiful noble tree this year, but life happened and this 4.5 foot tree out of my parents' stash is just as wonderful... mostly because of the memories that will be made with it in our home this holiday season.

Decorating the tree with the little miss was even better than I had hoped it would be. She had a special spot for every ornament and handled each one like they were made of diamonds and gold. She was obsessed with placing the star on top of the tree but we kept having to remind her that we were saving it for the very end.

We can't wait to open this little gift on our mantle, first thing Christmas morning.

This night as a family is going to be pretty tough to beat.

Meeting Dr. Flath

2011-12-16T12:30:00.000-08:00

We had our first visit with our new obstetrician at Emmanuel yesterday. His name is Dr. Flath and he is the father of our neighbor Katie. After our first appointment, I feel very comfortable with him and he seems to really care about us. The appointment was very simple... pee in a cup, step on the dreaded scale, blood pressure, listen to baby's heartbeat and measure the bump. Dr. Flath explained how he would like to transfer all of our care to Emmanuel, so as to keep everyone on the same page and location. We talked about my difficult delivery experience with Londyn and he assured us that with all of the doctor's involved, this time around will be much smoother. He also addressed the coordination of our cardiologists surgery schedule and date of delivery. He feels that a scheduled Cesarean Section would be the best option, as to meet everyone's convenience. At first I was relieved because out of all the unknown with this baby, our baby's birthday will be something to look forward to. Shortly thereafter, I was hit with the reality of surgery and a difficult recovery... not being able to hold my baby after he/she is born... which was something I was looking forward to, considering I won't be able to hold our baby for the first month of life. Positives? I will get to stay in the hospital and be near our baby longer. The cesarean will be performed by Dr. Flath and there is no guarantee with a regular delivery. With a cesarean, there is more control of our baby's stability and condition. Overall, it is what it is and if it is better for both myself and our baby- than it is the only way.

Dr. Flath would like to see me every 2 weeks and has referred us to be seen by a new Perinatologist, Dr. Merrill and our already established Pediatric Cardiologist on January 5th. On the 5th, we will have another ultrasound, echocardiogram and exam with both doctors. By the way, our 3-hour appointment is @ 7 IN THE MORNING... and it takes us an hour to get to there. Yikes. Can we say Big Gulp Diet Coke?

As far as insurance... we are still not in the clear. The plan that I chose when I first applied for the Oregon Health Plan was a Providence plan, as we were planning on delivering in a Providence facility with a Providence Provider. Now that we are transferring all of our care to Legacy Emmanuel, my insurance will only cover the providers- not the delivery. After all of the headaches with OHP, I was hoping we wouldn't face anymore. But it turns out the insurance saga continues. I have feared calling my case worker to inquire on switching to a plan that will cover the hospital, for them to drop my coverage because I have a very high risk and expensive case. After speaking with Dr. Flath's staff, I was told that they cannot legally cancel my coverage. With severity of our situation, OHP should have no reason to deny the switch because it is medically necessary to deliver at Emmanuel. We have no other option.

All in all, the visit was a success and we have 17 more weeks to prepare with this gifted team of physicians for the birth of our baby.

Christmas Cheer for All to Hear

2011-12-13T19:29:00.000-08:00

Is it me or is this month just flying by?!

Christmas is literally next week and we still don't have our tree up or any other decorations for that matter. The extent of Christmas in our home has been the frequent mugs of hot cocoa at night and the holiday-scented candles. Luckily, Grandma Milne has enough Christmas at her house for the whole town... so we all get our fix over there, without even lifting one box.

Londyn is obsessed with everything Christmas. On a daily basis, she ooohs and aaaaahs at all of the decorated houses that we drive by, sings "Jingle Bells" over and over again, randomly proclaims "HO, HO, HO"... and asks to watch a Christmas movie. This morning I was dropping her off at my mom's house before heading to work and I asked Lulu what she was going to do with Grandma today. She said she was going to "play with LOTS of Santa's ALL day."

Tomorrow, Andrew will be taking his last final for the term and then we plan to decorate our Christmas tree as a family. I am so excited to decorate our tree with Lulu! It is so amazing how she was still bald and babbling this time last year, and now she is our little/big girl... running, dancing, talking, joking and bringing us so much joy! We really don't need all of the glitz and fluff of the holidays... but it sure makes for fun memories made together.

Lulu and I just got finished watching How the Grinch Stole Christmas and making ornaments for our tree. She was so proud!

Out on the Town

2011-12-10T22:45:00.000-08:00

22 week Bump

We were able to go out tonight to my office Christmas party. I'm pretty sure I had the hottest date.

The party was at the Amadeus Manor, a cozy establishment in Milwaulkie with an Austrian-inspired flare. The five course meal was a delicious experience and it was nice to get out and try something new! Although I work in our Sherwood office and most everyone else works in the Portland office, I have known most of the staff since I was a kid. These people are not only coworkers, but friends. Any chance I can get to see them is a treat!

Accentuate the Positive

2011-12-10T13:24:00.000-08:00

"You've got to accentuate the positive
Eliminate the negative
Latch on to the affirmitive
 Don't mess with Mister In-Between"

These days, my goal is to follow the words of the fabulous and oh-so-handsome Bing Crosby.

True to my usual response to just about anything... I start out very emotional and overwhelmed, soon followed by work mode. I like to attribute work mode to my parents who always emphasized the fact that when there's a problem... DO!

A week ago, I wasn't able to Google Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome, but this week I was able to start researching and looking into our baby's condition and what happens now. Although I am still hesitant to dive into resources like support groups and talking to other parents of children with this defect, I am feeling ready to start planning for the year ahead of us.

I spent several days looking into our options after baby is born. It has come to our attention that while this condition is rare, the surgery is very well-known and has been successfully practiced for many years. Outside of Oregon, there are several facilities that specialize in children's heart transplants and heart surgery. Also, there is a fairly new option of fetal intervention at the Boston Children's Hospital. Both the heart transplant and fetal intervention options are very risky and are not recommended unless the Fontan Sequence is unsuccessful. With the help of various contacts in the medical field and research of my own, we are feeling very confident in receiving treatment here in Oregon. Not to mention the stress it would add on the baby and our family to travel and seek out of state care.

We have been really lucky to have great neighbors- Bobby, Katie and their 18 month old Lucy. Katie is a labor & delivery nurse AND her dad just happens to be an Obstetrician at the hospital we will need to deliver baby Armitage. Katie talked to her dad about our case and he not only confirmed that Dr. King, our Pediatric Cardiologist is the best of the best- but that he would be more than happy to take over our care. I was able to set up an appointment with him next week and we will go from there. I was nervous about finding another OB that we could trust and here we have one just fall into our lap! The best part? My OHP plan is through Providence because my care was planned to be all through Providence providers and facilities. Now that we are being transferred to Legacy Emmanuel, I was worried we wouldn't be covered. BUT, both our new OB and Pediatric Cardiologist are networked with Providence insurance plans.

Now for the very best news this week... we received 2 out of 3 results from the amniocentesis and our baby has all 23 pairs of chromosomes testing normal. The last test is for DiGeorge Syndrome, an abnormality in the 22 chromosome. Our genetic counselor Jeri told me that after seeing the other results, it would be very rare for the DiGeorge Syndrome to come out positive- but she will notify me as soon as they know, which should be within the next two weeks.

As for home life, Londyn hasn't been herself this last week. She hasn't been sleeping well, won't eat much and the most alarming... doesn't want to participate in her dance classes. She loves to talk dance class up, but when we get there- she just wants me to sit with her by the door in class. I have a feeling that she is acting on the stress and chaos of what is going on, so we are just trying to stick to her normal routine. I am making more of a point to give her lots of snuggles and special time with as much undivided attention as I can give. Through all of this, she is the best distraction from worry and stress. Christmas is an especially sweet experience this year. She is all about Santa, Jingle Bells, snowmen, Christmas trees and decorated houses. At night, we've been reading Christmas stories and when we talk about Mary & Joseph, she calls them "Mommy & Daddy"... and of course, baby Jesus is " baby brother, sister".

Tree Lighting & Parade in Old Town Sherwood

Dress Up Day @ Dance Class

We are anxiously awaiting Christmas morning, as an envelope labeled "Gender" sits on our mantle... just itching to be opened. It will certainly be THE BEST Christmas gift of the year.

Gratitude for His Plan

2011-12-07T16:54:00.000-08:00

Today I started thinking about the change that has taken place in our home. I don't know if it is because of the holidays or the tragic news, but there is more warmth and love in our family. I started to piece together what I think is the answer.

A little over a month ago, I was released from my church calling as Beehive Advisor in our ward. I had been in YW's for two years. Needless to say, it was VERY hard to break up with the Young Women's organization.

The last few months of my calling, I was struggling with Andrew being gone at school and work all the time, while trying to attend my meetings/activities/visits to the girls with Londyn in tow. I was starting to doubt whether my time was up.

It was the day after the YW's President and I had figured out a solution that I was sadly released! I was so bummed and couldn't understand why I had felt so rejuvenated with our new plan if I was meant to be released. As pathetic as it sounds, I was in a funk... feeling out of place in my new calling as a Primary Teacher with Andrew.

Over a month later, I love being in Primary and most of all, spending Sunday's with my husband. We have so much fun with the kids in our class and I love seeing how much they adore Brother Armitage. A calling I wasn't so sure about, has become such a blessing to our family. My husband's absence during the week was extremely hard for us and having this extra time together at church has brought us so much closer together.

This all leads me to my next thought... I was bitter when I was released from my calling, because I didn't have all the answers. With the now overwhelming condition of our baby, there is no way I could have juggled my calling in Young Women's and be an effective leader. My sour feelings have now turned into gratitude, and I hope He can forgive me for questioning His divine intervention.

Heavenly Father always has a plan for us and we just have to have faith that it will all work out. His plan for our new baby is truly divine and unlike most, just as most trials begin without understanding... become beautiful blessings.

Fear

2011-12-05T22:10:00.000-08:00

It has been 6 days since we received the news that will change the course of our family's future for the rest of our lives. When you go in for your 20 week ultrasound, the most you are usually concerned about is whether you will be welcoming a baby girl or boy into the world. I never expected to hear the near paralyzing news that we received last Thursday.

The most common question has been, "so how are you really doing?" My standard answer is "we're doing okay, pretty good... as well as can be expected." It is so hard to answer this question. How am I really doing? I don't know. I am all over the place... mentally and emotionally. In one sense, I am grateful that our baby is okay at this very moment in time. He/she is protected and cared for in my belly. I am doing everything I possibly can for this baby right now. On the other hand, I am terrified. When we first found out we were pregnant, my biggest fear was another labor and delivery gone wrong. Giving birth to Londyn was the most physically trying event in my life thus far and doing that all over again has been weighing on me for the last 5 months. Now, the delivery is the least of my concerns. We have so many doctors on our side that I am without a doubt confident that the birth of our precious baby will be in the best of hands.

The most difficult part of all of this is fear of the unknown. I fear the moment when after the birth, they whisk my baby away to the NICU to receive the necessary medicine needed to keep our baby's heart functioning. I fear the moment when they release me from the hospital and I am forced to return home empty-handed... no newborn baby swaddled in the newly installed car seat. I fear sleeping in my bed for the first time without a baby in my belly or waking up to a baby needing me every 2 hours to be fed and comforted. I fear how we will juggle all of the many visits to the hospital to see our baby fight for his/her life. I fear for that first surgery on our tiny baby's heart... waiting and waiting to know if the procedure was successful. I fear for all of the fear. At times it is just too overwhelming and all I can hold onto is "normal". Normal is tucking our little girl in at night and singing Jingle Bells over and over again upon request. Normal is snuggling on the couch with your husband, belly laughing while watching The Conan Show. Normal is arguing with my two year old in the car because she says "no home, mama... I go shopping!" Normal is feeling the tender kicks of our baby and knowing he/she is full of life. I have never cherished normal more than I do now.

The first two days following our appointment- I alternated from laying on the couch or in bed sobbing. I would alternate feeling strong and empowered one minute, to fragile and completely out of control the next. I didn't even acknowledge the frequent calls and e-mails of concern and support. All I wanted was to be with my husband and daughter.

Andrew has been such a strength to me. Even though he is grieving too, he is always comforting me and making me feel better. On Sunday, we decided to fast and I was so dead set on fasting that I planned to fast for the full two meals. He wasn't having that, so when I came downstairs after taking a nap- he had made me lunch and was not expecting anything less than for me to eat it all. I obeyed and was grateful because there was no way I could or should have waited until 5pm to eat. Our baby needs all the nutrition he/she can get from me.

As for Londyn, I have always known that Heavenly Father sent her sweet and sassy little spirit to me for a reason, but it is times like these that I am so thankful for her innocence and love for life. She makes me want to get out of bed and experience the world through her eyes, even when I feel like doing the very opposite. She makes me smile, when all I feel like doing is crawling up in a ball and crying. I have always known that her middle name "Joy" was inspired, because she brings joy to everyone and everything in this world.

This is the beginning of a journey. A journey through the many tests and trials of life on this earth. At this point, I have no choice but to rely on my Father in Heaven. Our family has to get through this and without Him, there is no other way. I will continue to pray, take care of this baby and love my family. That is all I can do for now.

Ward Christmas FHE

2011-12-05T22:03:00.000-08:00

Hello Kitty jammies & slippers

Lulu made great strides with Santa this year. For the ward FHE, all the kids were asked to bring a toy for Santa to give to a child in need. Londyn helped pick out the Mr. Potato Head toy earlier at the store and couldn't stop talking about going to the "Santa Party" to give Santa his present.

Lulu would only stand in line to Santa with her cousin Mary. Lots of Mary lovin'!

Baby News

2011-12-01T22:43:00.000-08:00

Please forgive me for all of the e-mails, texts and phone calls that I have yet to return. Emotions are very raw at this time and we are just plain exhausted. So, here is our news...

Two days ago I received a phone call from my Obstetrician that no expecting parent wants to receive... an abnormality was found on my 20 week ultrasound and he thought that the baby's heart might be too small. He said it was urgent for me to see a Perinatologist for a closer look.

I spent the last two days crying, praying and crying more and more. Today was the day, Andrew and I headed to the NW Perinatology Center where our 4 hour long appointment began. We started with another ultrasound, where it was confirmed that something was seriously wrong with our baby's heart. Dr. King, a very experienced Pediatric Cardiologist came in and diagnosed that our baby has Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome. This rare congenital heart defect is where the left side of the heart doesn't grow properly. After birth, the left side of the heart isn't able to pump enough blood to the lungs and rest of the body. Without surgery, this condition is fatal.

The Cardiologist gave us two different options that need to take place within the first week of birth. The first option is a heart transplant, which is not offered in the state of Oregon and the availability for infant hearts is rare, not to mention it would be very risky to transport our newborn baby in such a fragile state of life. Our second option is a Three-stage surgery to reconstruct the heart. The first surgery would be within a few days of birth, the second surgery would be between 4 and 12 months old and the last surgery would be between 18 months and 3 years of age. The Cardiologist also explained that following these surgeries, our child may suffer from some learning disabilities and will have a difficult time with athletics as he/she will become easily fatigued. He also explained that this does not take away from the fact that our child can be very successful and live a full and relatively normal life.

After receiving all of this overwhelming information, they performed an amniocentesis to find out if their was any genetic connection with this defect. If this is the case, their might not be any options for our baby at all. The Cardiologist said that it is very rare, but must be done- just in case. We will receive the results in about 9-14 days.

This is has been such an emotional time for both Andrew and I. At first, I was devastated and could barely hear all of the information that was being thrown at us. It was exhausting... mentally, physically and emotionally. After the appointment, Andrew and I finally had a chance to talk about everything. We started thinking about all of the positives in this situation and there really are so many. We are very thankful to have such an amazing team of caring specialists that know what their doing. We are blessed that our baby even has options for a successful quality of life and that the means to do so are right in front of us. We received news yesterday that Londyn, baby and I are all covered under the Oregon Health Plan- so now we will have insurance for the extensive medical care in our baby's future. We are so fortunate to have lots of family around for all of the love and support that we will need over these next few trying years.

Heavenly Father has really blessed our family thus far and the unknown that we are entering is just another test of our faith. In the last few days, I have found myself really wondering if my prayers were being heard. After being overcome with a sense of peace and hope for our baby and family, I know that He is listening and watching over us.

We are so thankful for all of your prayers, meals, visits, texts and e-mails - showing your love for our family.

Thanksgiving Weekend

2011-11-26T17:27:00.000-08:00

The holiday started out with some friends from the Marines at Chuck E. Cheese, celebrating their son Austin's 5th birthday party. We had so much fun catching up with the Runkle's, playing games and chillin' with Chuck E.!

*****

Turkey Day started out with a breakfast casserole, cinnamon rolls and lots of R&R. It was fabulous to just kick back and enjoy the day. My assignments for dinner this year were pumpkin pies and the salad. I baked the pies the day before and whipped up a salad in just 5 minutes. It was a REALLY tough cooking day... NOT!

We then headed over to my parents house and about two minutes away I got a call from my dad, just making sure we knew dinner was at 3pm. In a very convincing and shocked tone, I explained that mom had told me dinner was at 5pm. He apologized (as I could hear my mom progressively freaking out in the background)... I told him we hadn't even showered yet, so we would try to make it over as soon as possible. The minute I hung up, Andrew and I were cracking up and knew my poor mom was probably stressing to the max. When we pulled up to the driveway, we were soon greeted by my parents... glaring with hands on their hips. It wouldn't be a holiday with my family if I didn't give my mama a hard time! Love ya, Ma!

As usual, this day included lots of FOOD, FOOTBALL & FAMILY!

*****

On Friday, we had our 20 week ultrasound. Seeing our baby's face for the first time was such a sweet moment. I couldn't stop staring at the picture of his/her profile. It hit me that there really is a 4th member of our family on the way!

The ultrasound showed that baby is right on track for size, weighing 13 ounces and dating a little bit earlier than our original due date at April 11th instead of April 14th... so somewhere around there.

Now I know what you're wondering... just say it already, is it a GIRL or a BOY?!

Well, you're just going to have to suffer and wait with us as we had the sonographer put the gender in an envelope to be opened on Christmas morning! It will totally be worth the wait!

To tide you over for the next 30 days... meet the nugget...

The sonographer was so nice to give us a total of 12 photos, but this one is my absolute favorite.

Tiny hands...

Big foot...

Andrew got to feel baby kick with this little leg for the first time today!

The sonographer told us the ultrasound would take about 40 minutes, but baby was so active... squirming, kicking and flip-flopping all over the place that it took him 2 hours to get all of the measurements he needed.

*****

Now to top off an amazing weekend, my niece Emma turned 8 years old and chose to be baptized as a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints.

On Friday, I took my younger four nieces, my nephew and Lulu to Pump It Up Jr. to celebrate Emma's big day. Pump It Up was awesome and all the kids had a blast! Londyn loves her cousins so much. I can't believe how lucky she is to have them to look up.

Emma & Sam

Kai-Guy

Jen, Lulu & Emma

Emma gets air!

Emma, Mary, Lulu & Sammie

The crew

*****
The best part of this weekend was spending time with the Mr. and little Miss Lulu-pants. Londyn loves her daddy so much and having him home all to herself was a treat!

As Andrew raked the leaves into the street, Lulu made sure to sweep them back onto the sidewalk.
Such a big helper.

Loves for Lulu

2011-11-23T14:19:00.000-08:00

After yesterday's rants and raves, I have cooled down a bit and this morning, Lulu put everything into perspective. When I opened the door to get her out of bed, the first thing she said was "I see baby doctor today, mama?" She has not been able to contain her excitement for my doctor's appointment today and our "baby show" ultrasound scheduled for Friday.

It hit me that I have a little blessing in my belly and although it is a lot of work to get His children here on earth, it is the most beautiful and lovely part of life.

Today I am so thankful for this little peach. Lulu never stays mad at me, loves me unconditionally, showers me with kisses and hugs and makes me laugh every day! She makes every day a joy to live, just because I get to experience it with her.

I JUST WANT TO SCREAM!

2011-11-22T20:47:00.000-08:00

FYI: this post is complete and utter chaos, so don't say I didn't warn you!

This week is Thanksgiving and as everyone is roaming the grocery stores with warm fuzzies and preparing their annual poultry induced coma, I am sulking...with a numbing headache to boot. This headache is not only physical, but situational as well. You're intrigued, but you'll regret it when this is over.

Remember that super inspired post a few weeks ago about Andrew's last drill and how much I love the Marine Corps? Well, my feelings have become a little mixed since that time.

Three months ago, I made a call to our health insurance through the military regarding our post-reserve status options. Since I am pregnant, I wanted to make sure that our ducks were in line before we were out of the Marines. They assured me that we would then qualify for a Continuing Healthcare Benefit Program and to call when the time got closer so that we could transfer to the new plan.

Now fast forward to Thursday, November 3rd. I place the call to our insurance again to enroll in the new plan. The "customer service" representative proceeds to explain that I must have been misinformed because I in fact do NOT qualify for any continuing benefit and they currently do not offer anything for reservists after their contracts have completed. Of course, this was only two days prior to our coverage end date. I was devastated and gave them the benefit of the doubt by calling and speaking to several other representatives, crossing my fingers for a different outcome. Ehh- WRONG.

Instead of totally flipping out, I started making calls. Well first I had a diet coke... and then started Google-ing every possible medical insurance company, followed by organizations that assist Veterans and their families. Long story short, all of these sources had the same response. "We can't do anything for you because you are pregnant. We're really sorry but please make sure to call us AFTER you have the baby and we can help."

Last option? The Oregon Health Plan aka state insurance. Hands down, we have no problem qualifying financially but they are making it literally impossible for us to achieve coverage. I am at the point where I have lost almost all hope in my case worker. I mean c'mon, my husband served 6 years in the US Armed Forces, deployed to Iraq for 7 months... is now working his butt off in school to create a stable future for our family... we're both working to put food on the table, which isn't easy and have a 2 year old and another baby on the way in just 5 months! We are not trying to milk the system in every possible way. We just really need medical insurance.

My parents always raised me to know that medical insurance is an absolute must. No IFS, ANDS or BUTS... medical insurance is worth whatever you have to sacrifice to be covered. More now than ever with this economy, medical bills can really ruin a person or a families future. We have been so lucky to make it this far without debt or credit issues and I hope that this is not the beginning of a new direction.

After applying for OHP, I received a call within 24 hours to schedule a phone interview with a case worker. On November 7th, I had that interview and once that conversation was over, I was overwhelmed with a list of documents they needed from me to determine eligibility. After spending an entire day and a half gathering all of the necessary items, I e-mailed them to my case worker. This was all followed by intense waiting and more waiting. After leaving two messages on her voicemail, I finally heard back from her 11 days later... to let me know she had not received any emails. I then confirm the correct e-mail address and send again. Nothing. After waiting 4 more days and one message left, I get a call back from her and she has still not received anything. I tried again today... hopefully she will get them when she is in the office again tomorrow. Even if she does, she said she cannot look at my case until next week as she has a full schedule of appointments tomorrow. Seriously? I had sent everything she requested to an e-mail address that she apparently no longer uses... over 2 WEEKS AGO... and my case has yet to be evaluated?!

To top all of this off, I went to fill my prescription today for a medication and because my prior insurance is no longer active, what used to be a monthly payment of $22 is all out of pocket and now 250 bucks. Of course, I can't pay that... so here I sit with said headache caused by withdrawals from a medication that is supposed to keep me from riding the crazy train... which I am intensely experiencing at this time.

I want to scream, cry and eat buckets of ice cream ALL AT THE SAME TIME!

Deep breath.

So... if you're still reading this, which I'd be surprised if you still are... today was not a good day and all of this venting was more therapeutic and for documentation sake than my usual posts that are filled with rainbows and smiley faces.

The end.

Hey good lookin', whatcha got cookin'?

2011-11-21T18:17:00.000-08:00

I have been obsessed with the cookbook that our ward recently released. We have so many talented women in our ward that really know their way around the kitchen. I really appreciate that all of the recipes are doable, family-friendly, and for the most part contain ingredients that I usually have on hand.

So far, I have tried cheeseburger soup, taco soup and today- chicken pillows. I can honestly say that all of these dishes were delish!

I usually only cook full meals a couple days during the week and then of course, Sundays are strictly crock pot meals as we have church until 5pm. During the week, Andrew is either at school or work until 9 or 10pm and making a meal for myself and Lulu just takes too much energy. I'm not proud of it, but often times we are eating cereal or mac n' cheese for dinner.

Today was one of the few week days that I decided to cook. These are Chicken Pillows -chicken, cream cheese, celery & mushroom stuffed crescent rolls, topped with yummy gravy. It was super easy and so yummy! Definitely a comfort food. I paired the pillows with bread stuffing and steamed broccoli.

Lulu ate every last bite and then asked for "more, pwease!"

Please forgive the finger-in-a-light-socket hair... I had just taken out her piggy tails, hence the mad scientist look she is sporting. Yikes!

Just another day at dance class...

2011-11-21T13:20:00.000-08:00

Almost every day that Londyn has dance class, I can't help but take pictures. One of the best parts about being a mom is watching my daughter learn and have a blast doing it! Dance is just that for her.

The studio is offering Princess Camps in November, December and January. They each have a different princess theme and are filled with 2 hours of fabulous girly fun! Of course, we are doing all three camps! And the best part? 2 hours of ME time! LOVE it!

Veterans Day

2011-11-16T08:49:00.000-08:00

Last Friday was Veterans Day and we got to celebrate with our very own veteran! We went to Olive Garden, where Andrew received a free meal and a $10 gift card for his next visit. We then went across the street to Applebee's and got another free meal to go! It was perfect because he had to work that night, so his dinner was free too.

We love and appreciate all veterans and active service men and women that do so much to protect our nation.

Happy (belated) Veterans Day!

The best things in life are FREE...

2011-11-15T17:06:00.000-08:00

Londyn has been going to dance class since September and absolutely loves it. We live right next to the dance studio and pass it daily when we're out driving. Every time she yells "Dance class, YAY!" If we could swing it, she would take dance every day as she practices whenever and wherever there's music on.

Last week we tried a new class and she loved everything about it, including the teacher. She will now be taking two classes each week and as of January, she will be enrolled in three classes - hip hop, tap and ballet. I am always amazed when watching her in class because she listens so well and follows her teachers' instruction. If only I could get Teacher Rachelle or Teacher Lisa to get her to listen at home!

This love for dance has inspired me to consider getting back into the dance world. I have been dancing since I was 2 years old and it's all I've ever known when it comes to athletics or hobbies. Since I am almost 5 months pregnant, taking classes for myself is out of the question and teaching would be tough since I would need to take some time off. So, I decided to find out if the studio needed any help in their office. When Londyn is in class, I spend a few hours each week helping in the office. In exchange, Londyn gets to dance for free! It's a win, WIN! After I have the baby, I'd like to teach and take classes of my own- anything I can do to shed the prego pounds!

Here is my little helper!

She loves to help me make copies and spends lots of time coloring pictures while I'm getting things done.

Sleepy Time

2011-11-15T16:41:00.000-08:00

After the recent bedtime drama and sleepless nights, I am happy to share that we are back to a solid routine again! Londyn sleeps 8am to 8pm (most days) and takes 2-3 hour naps every day. The transition to her "big girl bed" is still taking place as she prefers to sleep on the her fuzzy rug on the floor, topped with at least 3 blankets, her pillow and a bazillion animal friends around her. Can we say high maintenance? But hey, whatever works to get us all some sleep- is fine with me! If you ask Londyn about her big girl bed, she will respond with "I sleep on ground".

I'd like to think she is just getting in touch with her Korean roots, finding comfort in sleeping on the floor... just like I did as an infant!

"Cocoa Cream"

2011-11-10T11:51:00.001-08:00

For some reason, Londyn calls ice cream, "cocoa cream". Like most things with Lulu, I have no idea where she came up with this. When I gave her some Greek yogurt with her lunch today, she was so excited because she thought it was cocoa cream. It was a pretty big helping and she managed to down it all!

FYI: I really do put clothes on this child... but her favorite outfit is her nude-y pants. She loves to take her clothes off and run free. I'm pretty sure she gets this from her Daddy because he was known to strip and streak outside when he was her age. Like father, like daughter.

Baby Show

2011-11-09T21:42:00.000-08:00

Ever since our first ultrasound, Londyn has been obsessed with the sonogram photo on our fridge. She talks about the "baby show" on a daily basis. To tide her over until our upcoming 20 week ultrasound, I decided to show her some videos on youtube of other baby ultrasounds. Here was her reaction...

I'm not certain what "muck" is... but it doesn't sound good.

Cheeeeeeese

2011-11-09T21:32:00.000-08:00

These photos literally speak for themselves... I have THE cutest child alive.

Lately, Lulu's "cheese" face has turned into an eyes shut, all pearly whites BIG grin.

She is such a sassy ham.

Oh how I love her so.

Lulu's Wowie

2011-11-05T12:38:00.000-07:00

Whenever Lulu gets hurt, she calls it a "wowie" and today she got a BIG wowie. We were all hanging out in our room and she was dancing to some music. She lost her balance and smacked her head on the nightstand. I wasn't too concerned because she tumbles about a bazillion times every day... but this time I was wrong. The poor thing was crying so hard and when Andrew went to check her head, there was blood running from a cut right in between her eyes and down her face. The Mr. was calm, but I freaked out! He cleaned her up and calmed her down, but I still thought we should have Dr. Grandpa take a look at the gaping hole in my kids head! He came over and examined the "wound" but said it should be fine. Phew! She will definitely have a scar but the trauma of stitches and potentially looking like Frankenstein's spawn would be a lot worse.

She was such a trooper, but every once and a while would say it hurts. Poor baby girl!

The Last Oo-rah!

2011-11-05T12:28:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was Andrew's last drill and birthday ball with the United States Marines. Monday, November 7th will mark as his 6 years of service in the Marine Corps. Although I have not been with him since the beginning of his journey with the Marines, I have known him for close to 4 of those years and it has been such an eye opening experience for me. I will never know what it is like to be in training or combat for war, but just being married to someone who does has given me so much respect and gratitude for those who have and continue to fight for our nation.

{Last time seeing Daddy in his camis}

Andrew has countless memories, friendships, hardships and sacrifices from his time with the honorable corps and it will forever bless our family. Every year, I look forward to attending the Marine Corps Birthday Ball in November. Not only because I get to dress up and see my man in his dress blues, but because the event is always inspiring. The speakers always leave you feeling like you are part of something big and that these men and women of the Marine Corps are making all the difference in the world around us.

Last night's ball was no exception. The messages were amazing as they highlighted the current state of the corps and memorialized the events of Pearl Harbor and 9/11. The food was fabulous... why? Because it involved my absolute favorite word, "Buffet"! Yum yummmm yumm-o! And that wasn't even the best part! When they started the music for dancing, only one older couple was out on the floor. Andrew stood up and grabbed my hand to dance. It was the first time that we got to dance since our wedding 3 years ago! I loved how it was a couple oldie slow songs. Then, the fast songs came on! Now Andrew doesn't usually like to dance to fast music, but I saw a whole new side of him and we did the twist, conga line and even the Jersey fist pump with all of his friends. We had a blast!

{236th Marine Corps Birthday Ball at the Portland Marriott on the waterfront}

It was a nostalgic evening with all the hugs, handshakes and goodbyes. I don't think the change will really sink in for Andrew until that dreaded drill weekend approaches and he won't have to worry about writing emails or making phone calls, packing his gear, missing school, missing work and getting up at the butt crack of dawn to work his tail off all weekend!

I am so proud of my husband and excited for this new freedom he has to fully focus on his career. He has known what he wanted to do and be since he was 15 years old and now he will finally be able to do it!

Congratulations Andrew!

Love,

Lulu & The Mrs.

Sweet as Pumpkin Pie

2011-11-05T11:52:00.000-07:00

We had such a perfect Halloween night, especially because Andrew was able to get home early to take Lulu trick or treating for the first time!

Earlier in the day, I got an ambitious kick and decided to try making pumpkin pie for the first time. I was so proud of my pies that I decided to share the tasty treat. We took them over to my parents' house and had pie and ice cream with Gma, Gpa & my sisters' girls.

Check out my pies ;)

Andrew and I took the girls out to trick or treat. Londyn had so much fun with her cousins and could have gone all night! She made out pretty dang good in the candy department.

16 Weeks & Counting

2011-10-30T21:10:00.000-07:00

At our ward Trunk or Treat, I went as a bump in the road!

This second timearound has proven to be really rough on my body. My neck and back are constantly hurting sobad that I have headaches every day. Butthe worst part is my sciatica. I gotpregnancy related sciatica at about 6 months with Londyn, but I started gettingthe same pain around 13 or 14 weeks this time. Some days, it is so painful that I can’t move. To help with the pain, I have been stretching2 or 3 times a day, doing squats and lifting free weights. I should be more active, but this is the bestI can do at the moment. On the brightside, I have noticed a bit of relief and I hope it is a product of all thestretching.

We went to our firstappointment with the OB/GYN this week and feel really good about Dr.Weghorst. He is Chief Medical Officer atthe Providence Newberg Medical Center, where we also had Londyn and he has beendelivering babies for a very long time! He eased most all of my fears and concerns after the numbing experiencewith Londyn’s birth. I don’t thinkanything could make me feel 100% about laboring another baby but I think I’m inthe right direction by putting my care in the hands of a board certified MDversus a Nurse Midwife this time.

UPDATE: Bedtime Blues

2011-10-28T13:33:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was all about preparing for the dreaded bedtime routine (or non-routine) and my planning paid off because... we all got more sleep last night!

After receiving lots of suggestions from women in my ward who responded to my desperate plea for help, I decided to take her mattress out of the crib and put it on the floor. I set it up like a real bed and gave her a pillow. When she saw it, she called it her big bed and couldn't stop jumping on it. Who knew a mattress on the floor could bring a kid so much joy! I also got a door knob cover for the inside of her bedroom, so that she would have to stay in her room when she got up out of bed.

We then spent the evening over at my sister's house, hanging out with the cousins. Jen (10) and Sam (8) made a big deal about their "big girl beds" and let Londyn climb in them and lay on them. Just what she needed!

When we got home, it was 7:30pm and the fun began! I started with a sippy cup of milk with 1.5 mg of Melatonin. Then it was time for jammies, books, prayers and songs. Londyn laid on her makeshift bed the entire time and even fell asleep while I was singing. I then slowly got up and tiptoed out of her room. The minute I had the door closed, I heard tiny footsteps to the door. Then, the wriggling of the doorknob. Once she realized she couldn't open it anymore, the crying began. She kept saying "Open door! Open door!" My heart started to break... but I stuck to my guns and went downstairs to do the dishes. By the time I was finished... there was silence. I snuck upstairs and stood outside of her room. I could hear her breathing on the other side of the door, so I know she fell asleep on the floor... but hey, she fell asleep! What a relief! To top it off? She slept until 8:15am! When I opened the door to get her, she jumped on her bed and said, "Big girl bed... like Jen and Sam!"

Our little girl is growing up way too fast!

Now that we know Londyn is ready for a big girl bed, Andrew converted her crib into a daybed and she is stoked! I know we've still got a long way to go in the bedtime department, but this little bit of progress gives us hope!

Punkins

2011-10-27T11:57:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was aninservice day at PCC, so we got to have Andrew all to ourselves… all day! We started the day off with a doctor’sappointment and then headed to Baggensto’s Farm. We took Londyn to Baggensto’s last year for herfirst pumpkin patch experience. She hadway more fun this year because she could do everything! We got to do a kids hay maze, seegoats and chickens, dig for potatoes, play on the playground and take a hayride to pick out our pumpkins. Andrewand I each picked out a larger pumpkin and Londyn got to choose two babypumpkins.

It was such a treat tohave Andrew home for the day!

I never know the method Lulu's madness, but she felt it was necessary to go around kicking all the pumpkins. Maybe that's her secret to picking the perfect pumpkin? Not sure.

Before dinner, Andrew carved his pumpkin and Londyn decorated hers with markers and stickers.

*more pictures to come of Andrew's finished creation.

Bedtime Blues

2011-10-27T11:56:00.000-07:00

Londyn has always beenan angel when it comes to sleep. Shestarted sleeping through the night when she was 3 or 4 months old. She always goes to bed at the same time eachnight without any hassle and takes 3-4 hour naps each day. We have been SO blessed!

Well, the time hascome… every parents’ nightmare when their child refuses to go to bed. She has always loved her crib, sotransitioning to a toddler bed has never come up… until recently. Last weekend, we were busy with severalevents that resulted in Londyn going to bed around 10:30 or 11pm two nights in a row. Every nightsince then, she has made it crystal clear that she is not going to bed. We have tried books, a sippy cup with milk,prayers, rocking and singing, a bath and even sitting beside her bed for hours…waiting for her to calm down. When shewas younger, we would let her cry it out and she would soon fall asleep on herown. But now, she climbs out of her criband opens her door yelling “daddy… Daddy… DADDY! I climb out!” Finally, Andrew came up with the genius idea of slipping some Melatoninin her sippy cup. 30 minutes later (10PM),she finally went to bed. After going tobed exhausted, we were surprised to wake up at 6am this morning to Londyn upand out of her room, roaming around the house yelling “I climb out!” Hoping she would fall back asleep, we put herin bed with us. WRONG. She just wiggled her little body around,tossing… turning and making sleep pretty much impossible.

Long story… long, wewill be getting a toddler bed and door knob covers ASAP.

- An overly exhausted mom

Birthday Bliss

2011-10-27T11:30:00.000-07:00

Since Andrew haddrill on my birthday weekend, I didn’t get to celebrate with him until lastweekend. But it was well worth the wait. He kicked me out of the house for anhour to drop Lulu off at my parents’ house and do whatever I wanted. When I was finally allowed to come home, Iwas welcomed with a trail of rose petals to the kitchen. Our dining table was beautifully set withflowers, silk napkins and china. He servedhis signature meal, caprese and pasta with sausage marinara sauce. A new addition was a tobasco sauce infusedstrawberry spinach salad. I know whatyou’re thinking… tobasco sauce… say what?! It was actually fabulous, just the right amount of kick! The icing on the cake was the goblets ofsparkling apple cider. Yummm!

He also gave me afunny card, 20 cans of DC and my current guilty pleasure – skittles. After dinner, he took me out but I didn’tknow where we were going or what we were doing. We ended up at the movie theater and I was surprised to find out that wewere seeing Footloose! I have beenwanting to see this flick ever since the previews came out, but knew that itwas not Andrew’s kind of scene. He was atrooper and although cheesy, we loved it!

The next morning wasSunday and we all slept in until 10am! Then Andrew started off the morning with my favorite, a mapledoughnut! Then he made a big hotbreakfast of pancakes, bacon and eggs. Best part? I didn’t have to lifta finger!

It was a great 25^thbirthday because the Mr. made me feel pampered and special!

Wiggin' Out

2011-10-20T11:54:00.000-07:00

Ever since I started torturing my hair in beauty school, my locks just haven't been the same. I have tried and tried to grow it out, but have failed poorly. Not to mention my hair has really thinned out since my first pregnancy. I am constantly backcombing my hair because A. I love big hair and B. I'm always worried that I am looking bald! We all have our insecurities right?

Being in the early stages of pregnancy, doing my hair every morning is such a chore.

Which leads me to... the wig.

A few weeks ago, I took a trip to a local wig shop to see if I could actually pull off the faux mane. After trying on about a dozen looks, I finally found one that I really liked. It is definitely longer and much thicker than my own hair. Everyone in the shop, including customers- convinced me to just go for it! I was really humbled as some of the people were frequent customers who experienced intense hair loss, due to chemo therapy and other diseases. Suddenly, my hypochondriachal paranoia of balding was just silly. Nevertheless, I made the purchase and have had a lot of fun with it! Not only does it only take me 15 minutes to get ready in the morning, it's a super fun way to feel fabulous on those days when you wake up and say... "Seriously? What am I supposed to do with ALL this?"

To make the wig last longer, I don't wear it every day... but I love when friends do a double-take because they barely recognize me at the grocery store or in Target!

If you are having more bad hair days than good or just curious about what a wig would look like, go to a shop and just try them on! It's super fun and hey... you deserve it!

25

2011-10-19T21:01:00.000-07:00

Last Saturday was my 25th birthday and I wasn't really forward to the day because Andrew had drill all weekend and most of my family was at the BYU vs. OSU game in Corvallis. I threw myself a pretty big pity party the entire week prior, but when the day came- I wanted to enjoy the things I did have that day.

Lulu and I didn't have an agenda for the day, so we did some of my favorite things! Our first stop was Costco, where we were able to hit up all the samples- some of them twice... shhh don't tell! Usually, we're in a hurry and the chaos of Costco gives me anxiety, so we don't get to fully enjoy the samples experience. So this was a treat! Following Costco, we headed to the mall. I got a few items at Motherhood, did some window shopping and then watched Londyn play at the indoor playground.

While some of my fam was at the football game, my mom was watching 6 of the grandkids. She took us all out to Red Robin for a birthday dinner. Going out to eat is hands down, my favorite thing to do! When we arrived, they were already seated and showered me with hugs and gifts! My nieces Mary and Jen made a fabulous cupcake bouquet and my niece Kaylee gave me a cute container filled with candies! Aren't they just the cutest?

So although I didn't get to spend the day with my man, I most definitely felt loved.

I am really looking forward to this weekend, because Andrew is going to celebrate my birthday with me!

Cutie Pie, Honey Bunch

2011-10-18T17:45:00.000-07:00

This is what you happens when you shop at Target...

Bump It

2011-09-28T21:03:00.000-07:00

I have been feeling so yucky that even my drive to blog has felt like a chore. But, life hasn't stopped and I still have lots to share! So here it goes...

I am 11 weeks pregnant now and this experience is already completely opposite from my first pregnancy. With Londyn, I was a little nauseas in the beginning but more so... just flat out exhausted the entire 9 months. This time around, I have been really nauseas, super tired, headaches and achey all over.

On a more positive note, we got to see our growing baby at our first ultrasound. Londyn loves TV a little too much, so when she saw the baby on the screen- she called it "the baby show". It was such an amazing experience having both Andrew and Londyn there. Lulu already loves the baby so much and the first thing she said when the peanut showed up on the screen was "cute baby". I'm not so sure how cute our little one is at the moment, since it still looks a little alien-like but- it was amazing to see it's little arms and legs wiggling around. I can't wait to start feeling the baby kick and move! The ultrasound showed that baby is healthy, has a strong heartbeat and confirmed a due date of April 14th. Although it was wonderful to finally see a real baby growing inside my belly, I think my favorite part of the ultrasound was seeing Londyn react. After the ultrasound, she kept telling us that the baby show was FUN! It is so stinkin' cute to see her get excited about the baby.

Andrew was home most of last week and it was such a relief to have an extra set of hands and most of all, his company. He completed lots of chores/projects around the house, took care of Londyn so I could nap and relax, spent time with me at night when I was feeling the worst and even out on a date Saturday afternoon. Having spent so much time apart this Summer, it was nice to just spend time together... being a normal family that has dinner together, puts the kid to bed together and sees each other at night. It was the perfect ending to the Summer season!

The bump.

Nay-Nay Cute!

2011-09-26T21:10:00.000-07:00

Londyn has been blessed with super cute curls and I'm crossing my fingers she won't grow out of them! But I've always wondered what her lovely locks would look like straight... so after her bath tonight, I decided to play beauty shop (one of the fun perks of having a girl)! I swear, the poor kid hasn't gone a day without her hair done since the day she was born... even when she didn't have any hair to do, I threw a headband on her bald little head. Hence how fabulously cooperative she is with doing her hair every morning. So, when I told her we were going to play with her hair, she was all for it! I got my round brush out and went to town... followed by a few swipes of the flat iron and of course, my signature trademark... back combing. Yes, I ratted my 2 year olds hair.

The whole time I was doing her hair, the both of us could not stop laughing! Lately, she has been calling herself "Nay-Nay" so after we were done with her new do, she flashed her pearly whites, put her hands on her squishy cheeks and said "Nay-Nay cute!"

I'm still not sure if I'm diggin' the Beiber hair on my usually curly cued diva, but it was definitely a fun time as just us girls!

Canning Apprentice

2011-09-12T22:47:00.000-07:00

So far this year, my domesticated diva of a sister has taught me how to bake bread, grow a garden and today, can 14 jars of peaches... ALL for the first time! My sister is the best teacher, mostly because she is so patient and I am so stubborn. Every year, she asks me if I want to can, juice or make jam with her and my usual response is something like "uhhh... no, maybe next year." But with my growing family and talented sister, I would be an idiot not to take her offer! I am always so amazed at her skills in the kitchen and if some of that talent can rub off on me, I'll be one lucky little sis! Today, I deemed her the Canning Queen and myself, the Canning Apprentice. Thanks Jenelle!

First Zucchini of the Summer

Canning peaches was not near as lengthy or difficult as I thought it would be. I enjoyed every step, from peeling the peaches to hearing the lids pop when they were done! When I got home, it was just a sweet feeling as I placed the jars I had just canned on the shelves with the rest of our food storage. Even though it's only 14 jars of pure gold, it's absolutely and undoubtedly rewarding! Honestly though... I don't think they stand a chance of lasting very long in our home. They're toast!

Dance Class: Take 2

2011-09-12T15:49:00.000-07:00

Today was Londyn's Ballet & Tap dance class. I was nervous after our experience last week, on top of the fact that Londyn said "no dance class" this morning. But last night, she danced around in her new tap shoes for a good 30 minutes and loved it. So, our chances were looking good!

Daddy came with us this time!

Lulu loved her teacher Miss Rochelle and only had one other little girl in her class. I think she was overwhelmed with her tumbling class last week as it had about 6 other kids in it.

This class is called Little Movers and the first half is ballet, while the second half is tap. I loved how her teacher switched activities frequently. It was the perfect pace for Londyn's short attention span.

Not one tear was shed and after the first half, I snuck out of the classroom without her even giving one worried glance!

I loved watching our little dancer have fun in her class! I am so proud of her for being such a big girl and especially following all of the directions. I can't wait for her to try tumbling again on Thursday!

Girls Just Want to Have Fun

2011-09-10T22:19:00.000-07:00

It has been just us girls this weekend as Andrew has been at a 4 day long drill. So I decided to have all my nieces over for a back-to-school party! These girls are such a big part of my life and I am so lucky to have them so close. When I was younger, I loved throwing sleepovers and parties for them but with married life and motherhood, it's not as easy. I am realizing that these girls are growing into young women, and they aren't always going to want to hang out with me! So spoiling them is the only answer.

No boys.

Pizza, candy, cookies & ice cream.

Lots of laughs.

Pillows, blankets & a movie.

Best part... each other.

The aftermath... and all worth it.

Dance Class

2011-09-08T21:22:00.000-07:00

For the last week, Londyn and I have been talking about going to dance class soon. Even though I knew she didn't have a clue what dance class was, she has been super excited whenever it was mentioned.

We set out her dance clothes and picked out her hair bows before bed last night. We were ready!

This morning went perfectly smooth as Lulu woke up in a super happy mood! She pranced around in her leotard, saying "cute Lulu" and "go to dance class? now?!"

My only fear has been Londyn's shyness lately. She has been so clingy that she can't even make it through nursery (with Grandma as her nursery leader) without crying hysterically for mommy or daddy. She has been going to nursery without any flaw since she was 16 months old, so this new sensitivity is really foreign for us.

Upon arrival, Londyn was still in good spirits and not acting overly shy. While her teacher was pulling out the mats before class, Lulu decided to run around the classroom and check herself out in the floor to ceiling mirrors.

Once class started, her attitude took a turn for the worse and she did not want to have anything to do with dance class. She started crying hysterically and saying "no dance class!" and "I go home!"... yikes. I knew it was too good to be true. Her teacher suggested that I come and join in on the class... but she wasn't falling for that either. She then recommended that Londyn just watch through the window from outside the class. My kid got kicked out on the first day! We'll see how she does next week... but it's not looking promising.

From the outside, looking in...

8 Weeks & Counting

2011-09-03T09:23:00.000-07:00

It's official! Londyn is going to be a big sister!

8/4/11: 3 weeks, 5 days

I have just been having a strange gut (get it?) feeling that I'm pregnant... and since we have been trying for a few months now, this is probably the tenth stick I've peed on. But, this time I finally saw the little pink line!

I have always wanted to come up with some super cute and creative way to tell my husband that we are preggers... but that would take patience, and that is something I SO do not have. This is how it went... I came out of the bathroom, probably smiling way too big and said "are you ready to be a daddy again?" I then proceeded with an impromptu the-test-is-positive-and-I-really-am-pregnant dance. Andrew laughed and looked at me like I had three heads.

8/5/11: 3 weeks, 6 days

I have had a nasty cold and major chubbiness going on. I had these exact same symptoms before I found out I was pregnant with Londyn. I was shocked to discover that sinus congestion/cold is a common symptom of pregnancy... who knew?

The chubby look is my least favorite part in the early stages. I started showing at around 6 weeks with Londyn... we were living in Utah and I would send my mom and sister pictures of my belly. I cried to Andrew because they didn't believe that I could be showing that early. I remember them asking if I was taking pictures of someone else's pooch! When I came home for Christmas at about 9 weeks, they were finally convinced because I already looked 6 months pregnant. All throughout my pregnancy, people (even strangers) would comment on my large bod and how it MUST be twins... Little did we know that I was going to give birth to a 9 lb. 5 oz. chunk!

Last time I gained 60 pounds during pregnancy! I wonder if it had anything to do with the countless super-sized meals of 10 piece chicken nuggets, fries & diet cokes. I ate... ate... and ate a ton. To top it off, I had about as much motivation to exercise as a beached whale.

This time around, I am determined to stay active, eat healthy and listen to my body. I am still struggling with the changes my body has made after having a baby the first time, so I want to try really hard to take care of what I've got this time around! Not to mention, I have an active 2 year old that will keep me on my toes, whether I want to or not.

As for my feelings and emotions on having another baby... I still can't believe it! I am so happy! It's round two and we know more of what to expect. Londyn is ready to have a playmate and baby to love on. She will be almost three when the baby comes! I have seen so many of my friends and their newborns recently, which has just made the baby itch that much stronger! Hopefully I can still remember that feeling when I've only gotten about 2 hours of sleep at a time, haven't showered for 36 hours and my 3 year old is begging to eat something other than hot dogs or mac n' cheese... hopefully.

My only initial fear of having another baby... is just that, having another baby. I can't even believe that I went through 54 hours of labor and delivery with Londyn. SO many factors in that pregnancy and delivery were wrong and if it weren't for my mom and sister's vivid memory, I wouldn't even be able to list all of them.
This time, I WILL make sure that I am 100% confident in my doctor. No doula, no nurse midwife, no doctor not measuring me every visit or checking the size of the baby when I am way huge and then finding out I'm overdue AFTER the baby is born. No being delivered by a student nurse midwife and being her first delivery ever without an overseeing physician in charge. No discouraging a C-section after my water being broken and only being dilated to a 3 for over 2 DAYS. No pushing for 4 hours with the epidural worn off because the idiot STUDENT nurse midwife doesn't know how to deliver a baby. No no no. I realize labor is LABOR... but c'mon, that was just pure misery.
But... I'm not going to lie, the product of all that insanity was worth it. I held that little girl in my arms and I forgot every one of those last 50-some-odd hours.

8/13/11: 5 weeks
Today we had our very first yard sale... need I say more? After it was over, I was beyond beat. Pregnancy and a yard sale is a recipe for a 3 hour long afternoon nap.

8/14/11: 5 weeks, 1 day
After church today, we had a big dinner with my whole family to celebrate the August birthdays, Andrew and my nephew Kyler. We decided that since everyone would be together, this would be the perfect time to make our big announcement. Londyn was wearing a shirt that I ironed on the words "Big Sister" in rhinestone wording, with a cardigan sweater over top. As irreverent as it sounds, we took the sweater off during the prayer over the food so she would be ready to reveal when everyone opened their eyes. After the prayer, we announced that Londyn had something to show everyone and Andrew turned her around to show off her shirt. We definitely got the reaction we were hoping for, because everyone was so surprised!

8/16/11: 5 weeks, 3 days

8/31/11: 7 weeks, 4 days
Pros: not puking.
Cons: exhausted, nauseas, cold symptoms and super sensitive to smells

Londyn plays with her babies for numerous hours each day. She feeds them with her sippy cups, changes their diapers and tucks them in for "nigh night". When asked where our baby is, she says "mama tummy". Sometimes she lifts her shirt up and says "baby tummy".

9/2/11: 7 weeks, 6 days
Today was the beginning of many pokes and pushes over the next 7 months. I had my first visit at the OB/GYN office and I soon remembered the drill of peeing in a cup and letting go of my personal space, while it is completely invaded.
I won't see the obstetrician until I am 12 weeks, but I was able to see the Nurse Practicitioner, who was really nice and comforting. Considering Londyn was a tank, at 9 lbs. 5 oz., they surprised me with a 1 hour glucose test for gestational diabetes. I thought it was way too early for something like this! But hopefully, the results will be just fine like my last pregnancy.

9/3/11: 8 weeks
I have NEVER EVER liked cereal with milk in my life, but as of lately - I am having one bowl for breakfast and even one at night, after Lulu goes to bed.

Londyn Lately: 26 months

2011-09-01T22:50:00.000-07:00

I have been sitting here with my fingers anxiously resting on the keyboard, trying to put how much I love my daughter into words and I am absolutely speechless.

So... take a look for yourself, and you will fall in love with her too!

Gma Milne is dogsitting for my sister and Lulu loves taking her for walks. My sister's dog is names Maggie but Londyn calls her "Moggie." She tells the dog "go potty Moggie" and "c'mon Moggie." I think she likes being in control... poor dog.

Londyn LOVES her new winter coat from Gma Milne. Can you tell?

Seriously? This kid makes me so happy to be her mommy.

I took Londyn to play at her favorite toy store today, and she told me she was making a cake. How cute is the oven mitt?

Marine Corps Family Day

2011-08-31T10:19:00.000-07:00

This last Saturday, we were able to attend Marine Corps Family Day. It was a 5 hour long event and Andrew was required to stay the entire time, so we did too! It was nice to just spend time together, eating, roaming around base and checking out the different activities.

Does it get any cuter than this?

Lulu loved exploring all the vehicles.

Chillin' on the bounce house.

Armitage's in da House

2011-08-31T10:15:00.002-07:00

We just said farewell to Andrew's brother Chris, his wife Elle and their three beautiful kids Karina, Marcelo & Lia after a fun 6 day visit from Utah! We were able to go to the park, OMSI, the coast and my fav- out to eat at some yummy restaurants.

We tried a yummy doughnut shop in Lincoln City! Of course, Londyn picked out the messiest one... chocolate covered with sprinkles. She ate every crumb!

While walking the dock in Newport, we saw lots of sea lions and people crabbing.

Cutie Patootie

Andrew and Chris

Going to Mo's is a tradition whenever we go to the coast, but this time we tried the original Mo's in Newport. We liked the atmosphere and service even better than our regular location.

We had lots of fun having for Armitage's in the house and Lulu especially loved having her cousins to play with 24/7. Now that it's back to just us three, she is bored out of her mind!

G-Sale Finds

2011-08-19T10:26:00.000-07:00

Last weekend we held our very first G-Sale and after that experience, I have a much greater appreciation for the G-Sales that I scope out every weekend. On Fridays, I work in the afternoon... so Londyn and I usually head out first thing in the morning to hunt for super finds! I am a pretty picky G-Saler so I rarely actually buy anything, but today I totally scored!

I have been eyeing this pink and purple Radio Flyer trike for Lulu since her 2nd birthday, but couldn't justify the bank I would have to rob to get it for her... and even on Craigslist, they are spendy! I like em' cheap! I really lucked out today, because I found one for 3 BUCKAROOS! WHAT - A - FIND! It's in fab shape and Londyn loves it.

Londyn showed me the tassel and said "Pink bow, mama!"

I also found a My First LeapPad that came with 3 books for only 5 bucks. She loves books and interactive toys, so it's the perfect combo!

The Mr. turns 26

2011-08-16T22:20:00.000-07:00

Can I just say, I love this man!

On the 8th of this month, Andrew turned 26 and I think I nailed it on the spoiling! In the past, I have always thought the bigger the surprise, the better! But, after a few years... I have learned that my husband is a simple man and less is more. The more extravagant plans are just not his style.

We kicked off his birthday the Friday before, and went as a family to Red Robin, followed by shopping for some new kicks! (which was an interesting experience with a screaming Lulu... who was determined to push the cart into everything, rather than sit in it... ugh).

Typical.

His actual birthday was on Monday. Lulu and I woke him up with breakfast in bed and a new bottle of his favorite cologne. The best part was surprising him with news that we got to spend the WHOLE day celebrating his birthday with him... he looked confused... I then explained that I had arranged with his manager a couple weeks prior and he had the day off! We then proceeded with the entire day being about him because he totally and completely deserved it! We bought him some school clothes and then in the evening, we had date night! We went to dinner at Famous Dave's, followed by Coldstone... YUMM-O!

I hope my man felt as special on his day as he truly is to me.

Happy Birthday babe.

Londyn Lately

2011-08-16T21:44:00.000-07:00

Walking Auntie Nell's dog Maggie

Determined to carry the basket at the market

Londyn HAD to wear her "pack-pack" today... while playing outside, eating dinner, in her car seat, walking at the track, playing at the park and while visiting daddy at work. "No, MY pack-pack!"

The cutest kid in the world!

Londyn Lately

2011-08-03T23:49:00.000-07:00

So... I just have to blog about how stinkin' cute my kid is.

Lately, she...

... says "hold you" when she gets shy or upset.

... says, "I count! Two... B... six... eight!"

... know's the difference between what a letter and a number look like.

... when asked how old she is- says "B!", "three!" or "six!"

... when asked, what's your name- she says someone else's name and then giggles.

... is going through a phase where she hates taking a bath or shower. To avoid raising the "stinky kid" we go to lots of parks with water features.

... is getting so BIG! She wears a size 3T in clothing and size 6 in shoes.

... is constantly saying things are "cute" or "cool"

... takes 4-4.5 hour naps, daily. (That's right. Be jealous.)

... starting to really play with friends instead of just side-by-side play.

Between our little veggie garden and the massive ones at Grandma and Auntie Nell's houses, I have really enjoyed watching Londyn explore watering the plants and picking the fruits and vegetables. Her newest fascination is zucchini. Ours aren't big enough to pick yet, but she loves to help gather the "cchini" in Grandma's garden. The way she says "cchini" makes me smile so much!

Lulu loves strawberries but only the ones that she picks off the plants. She gets so excited!

Some of my favorite time spent at home as a family is when we hang out in our backyard. This last Sunday, we spent the evening relaxing in the yard. Andrew built a fire in the firepit and we had fun setting off some small fireworks from the 4th of July.

Daddy's little cheerleader

Ever since I can remember Londyn starting to talk, she does this cute thing where she shakes her head and says mama...dadda...baby... and pretty much anyone else she is thinking about. It's hard to explain but we can never get it on camera! Finally we got a glimpse.

Girls Beach Retreat

2011-07-28T22:47:00.000-07:00

For the last several years, my mom has been treating the girls and grandkiddos to a Summer beach trip! Last year was Londyn and I's first time going but she was still very little. This year, it was so much more fun with Lulu because she could participate in all of the activities with the kids.

We so appreciate my mom for the awesome beach house and treating us to meals out, treats and shopping!

I love my girl.

The Oregon coast never has predictable weather, but we got lucky and got lots of time at the beach with blue skies, sunshine and the gorgeous ocean!

Ten mermaids and a pirate.

Miss Independent.

One of the girls' favorite beach trip traditions is the annual shopping spree and photo shoot. The cousins partner up and Grandma gives each of them a budget to pick out an outfit at the outlet mall. My favorite part is seeing all of their individual styles and personalities shine. Following the shopping trip, my talented sis-in-law Rebecca does a photo shoot with all the kids. Unfortunately, Londyn was way overdo for her nap and didn't last very long but I can't wait to see how the photos turn out!

Here is the outfit I picked out for Lulu. She's just getting so big!

Londyn adores her cousin "Kay-Kay" and would ask for every morning when she woke up. Sometimes when Kaylee is around, Lulu will only go to her!

Another beach trip tradition is going to our favorite restaurant Mo's. Yummmm-o!

The kids loved playing on the beach outside of Mo's, digging for clams and splashing around in the freezing cold water!

After Mo's and the beach, Grandma took us all to the "Naked Mermaid" ice cream parlor. It isn't really called the naked mermaid but theirs a statue of one outside of the parlor... thus the nickname.

My absolute favorite part of the trip was swimming at the pool. In the past, Londyn has always been really nervous and scared around water. But she is definitely growing up because I don't think there was a moment where she wasn't smiling from ear to ear in the pool! Although, she did get sassy because she didn't understand that she couldn't just let go of me and swim like all the other kids. She loved to climb out of the pool and jump in the water... even when people weren't expecting it! Yikes!

We had so much fun and can't wait until another girls retreat next Summer!

Morning Glory

2011-07-26T15:32:00.001-07:00

Every morning when little miss Lulu wakes up, she has a routine. She talks to herself for a good 5-10 minutes and then I go into her room to get her out of her crib. She always wants her "blank" (blanket) and usually puts her "pappy, nigh night" (pacifier away). We then go downstairs and repeats "show, show, show... show!" She wraps herself up in her blankets, watches a show and asks for a "ba-ba" or "mulk" (milk).

Two days ago, I started the morning routine by going in to grab her from her crib... only to find her already out! Londyn has ALWAYS loved her crib and when she's tired, she tells us she wants to go to bed. So we've never had an issue with her escaping... until now. Most kids I know that are her age have been doing this for a while now, so it was only a matter of time. I hope to keep her in the crib for as long as possible before converting to the toddler bed as I know she will have a hard time napping. Her naps are my only ticket for rest, relaxation and the occasional momentum to actually get something done around the house... which is why I am not at all looking forward to the toddler bed stage.

Fonduely Yours.

2011-07-24T12:11:00.002-07:00

Three years ago today, I married a Marine filled with ambition, drive, a long list of talents and looks that still make me weak in the knees. He is truly the man that I always dreamed of marrying. I am constantly admiring how hard he continues to work for our family, the love he has for his daughter and most surprisingly... how well he puts up with me!

Marriage is not easy... at all and we learned that right off the bat! Since Andrew and I really didn't know each other very well when we got married, our commitment was based on just knowing it was right. In the first year, we learned so much about each other and worked out a lot of kinks and quirks. In the second year, we became a family of three, which brought more patience and love into our home. The third year? Our lives our in sync and we often get the feeling of an old married couple. We are no where near perfect or have everything figured out, but we are both a little less stubborn and a little more flexible. We make each other laugh, hold hands and snuggle every day. I hope that never changes. And now, for the fourth year. Who know's what comes next. Although it seems like just yesterday that we met, it is hard to remember the way things were before Andrew came a long.

He is my best friend and I am blessed to share my life with him.

*****

We had such an amazing time celebrating our anniversary last year, that we decided to do the very same thing this year! My parents took Lulu for us and we went out to The Melting Pot for dinner. We were seated in a quiet corner booth that shouted romance, enjoyed (which is an understatement) salads, a delish cheese fondue, a variety of meats, fish and poultry for our entrees and finished off with a chocolate fondue. It was absolutely perfect.

After our two hour dining experience, we took a stroll around downtown Portland... people watching and just talking. After picking up Londyn and tucking her in for the night, we watched a movie and snuggled in bed. It was a recipe for the perfect anniversary.

Our story is still crazy... even three years later.

I had just sworn off men the month prior to meeting my man on Match.com - as ironic as it was, the "It's okay to look" phrase on their commercials really caught my attention. My success with men was inexistent and I decided to take a break from them. I kept seeing the Match.com commercials and finally gave in. I looked! Within the first couple of days, I found Andrew. Apparently, he found my profile first and didn't make any move because he thought I was out of his league. WRONG! As untrue as it was, I contacted him first with a WINK. He then e-mailed me and we never stopped.

The interesting part about our story is that Andrew was in Iraq serving in the Marine Corps at the time. He had been there for a total of 6 months and had about one more month to go. We emailed back and forth about 3 to 4 times a day for a month. We were able to talk on the phone several times but most of our contact was via email. We knew that we had a lot in common and were eager to meet with the hopes that something would come of this long relationship through correspondence. No commitment was made, just plans to meet and see where this connection would go.

I went on a cruise to Mexico with my family for a week and in that time, Andrew arrived safely back from Iraq. When I returned we had planned as two strangers to meet at the airport so he could give me a ride home. The first time I saw my future husband was a feeling of “home.” He was and still is very handsome and such a gentlemen. We had a few big long hugs and looks of “we must be crazy” and then headed to his car. In the car we were joking around and he went to give me a high-five. I, being the very forward woman that I am, took his hand and didn’t let go. To his surprise, it just fit. He then took me to my apartment, brought my bags in, and we just sat in awe of this strange and ironic situation. It was like we had been together for much longer than just a couple short hours. I offered to get him a glass of water and he accepted, following me into the kitchen. In the kitchen he took me in his arms and gave me one of his world famous hugs, followed by a silent slow dance on the cold linoleum kitchen floor. I thought he was making “the move” and was going in to kiss me. But boy, was I was wrong! So I kissed him instead. At this point, he knew I was a take-charge kind of girl. We spent a few more hours in my apartment discussing the “status” of our relationship and how fast all of this was going. It didn’t matter and we accepted the blessings that we had been given, in meeting each other no matter how crazy it was.

The next day, we decided to spend time together doing normal things that a boyfriend and girlfriend would do and go on our first date. We had lunch at Mimi’s Café (our favorite restaurant) and then ran a few errands. As we were driving in the car, nonchalantly and so sincere, he told me that he knew it was too soon and was unsure as to how I would react, but he loved me. The feeling was mutual and I told him “I love you too.” We then discussed what was supposed to happen next. With this being the first week of May and Andrew starting school at the end of August, we decided that with it being only the day after meeting... it was only natural to get married. And married fast! We bought my engagement ring the following day and he proposed 3 days after that in a beautiful garden, filled with an array of beautifully colored flowers and surrounded by several gorgeous waterfalls. We were engaged and wedding planning for the next three months. In those agonizing three months we definitely considered eloping to Vegas a few times. But we managed to make it through. We were married and sealed for time and all eternity in the Portland, Oregon Temple of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints on July 24th, 2008. It was the most wonderful and memorable day of our lives. We then honeymooned in Honolulu and cruised the islands of Hawaii. After a week of relaxation and the beauty of Hawaii, we returned to civilization to start our new life together as husband and wife.

Three months after saying "I do" we were blessed with the news that we were expecting a baby! Londyn Joy arrived on July 2, 2009. She is the most perfect little girl and we love her more and more with each day that we get to raise her.

We have our own little family now, with a unique story of how it all began. It isn’t so much as a modern day fairytale as we work hard through the bad days and give thanks for the good ones. His strengths are clearly my weaknesses and my strengths are his. It works! We take care of each other.

In short, we met online and then in person a month later. We kissed on our first meeting, bought a ring two days later, engaged three days after that and then got married three months following. Three months after all was said and done, we were expecting! Three is clearly our lucky number!

We love each other very much and without using Match.com we would still be looking for each other in all the wrong places.

First Date at Mimi's Cafe in Orem, Utah

Anxiety & Motherhood

2011-07-21T22:53:00.000-07:00

It has been almost 3 weeks since Londyn turned two and if it is even possible, I am more and more in love with her every day. Now we may just be having a really good few weeks but I am enjoying this stage of her life more than any other so far. I love that she can tell me how she feels, what she wants and is constantly sharing her sassy personality. She is ALWAYS talking... I wonder where she gets that from?

The only difficult part of this stage so far is that I find myself reverting back to being the mom of a newborn that I never was. When Londyn first entered my world, I was never afraid to put her in the crib after two weeks... I let her cry it out with little hesitation... we let go of the baby monitor after just a few months... and the list goes on. It wasn't until lately that I have become much more anxious and more protective of her. It is the strangest and most foreign feeling. At night, when I lay in bed... I worry, worry and worry some more. I get nervous about whether she has too many blankets in her crib... whether she is warm enough or if I should go turn off her fan. Sometimes I even peak in on her to make sure she is still breathing. Is this normal? I feel like I am entering motherhood all over again!

The more I have prayed and thought about these fears, I think that the responsibility and heaviness of my love for her is beginning to really sink in. Although I love the progress and growth that she shows every day, I am so sad to see each stage pass. It amazes me that in these last two years, I have been so eager for future stages to take place and now that they have come and gone, I want her to just slow down! I know that this feeling will only get stronger as she gets bigger, which is why I plan to enjoy each and every laugh, cry, snuggle and even the occasional tantrum. She is and will forever be my joy.

Lulu is such a happy girl.

My little dancer.

So silly.

Robin Hood Festival

2011-07-16T22:43:00.000-07:00

This entire week, I have been counting down the days until the Robin Hood Festival, an annual tradition in my little hometown of Sherwood. The parade grows longer and longer with every year that passes, the renaissance wear continues to be most unfashionable and the Fireman's chicken never ceases to tantalize my tastebuds.

This year, Londyn was all about the parade. She clapped, waved and yelled "woohoo!" to all the floats and passersby. We are loving this age!

"Pretty Ears"

2011-07-16T22:35:00.000-07:00

When Londyn was 3 months old, we got her ears pierced and I still believe it was the best time to do it! She barely even cried or ever had a problem with them. But they did fall out a couple times during her naps, which led to a cheaper alternative to 14k gold... which led to sensitive ears and infection. We decided to leave them out and try again in the future.

Now that she is two and can tell us when things are bothering her, I feel good about trying earrings again... plus the fact that a little extra bling never hurts.

On Thursday, I took Lulu to Claire's in the mall and they were able to pierce both ears at the same time. She was super wiggly but barely even let out a peep when they did it. After it was done, she was adamant that she get her candy that I had promised over and over again.

I'm crossing my fingers she will do well with earrings this time! She calls them her "pretty ears".

I love my little girly girl!

Londyn Lately {24 months}

2011-07-16T22:22:00.000-07:00

This week, Londyn and I tried going to the movies for her first time. I was hesitant, since the kid can barely ever sit still... but when she does, it's usually while plopped in front of the TV to watch a show. So we gave it a shot, and after stuffing my purse with snacks galore and a little over an hour of watching Yogi Bear, I would say her first movie theater experience was a success! She was enamored by the huge screen and kept pointing and telling me about the big "show". It love watching her love life and trying new things!

If it weren't for my sister, I don't know how I would get through the long Summer nights while Andrew is working. Although we are so grateful and proud of him, we miss him terribly. My sister Jenelle is a pro at doing the night time routine by herself as her husband is a police officer and has always worked crazy hours. I would be surprised if she hasn't gotten sick of us yet, as we pop in... unannounced to just hang out and sometimes even mooch a meal or two. Here is a picture of my niece Jennifer and Lulu when we went to Olive Garden about a week ago. Londyn's best friends are her cousins. She can never have enough of them! Can you tell how much Londyn loves her Jen-Jen?

Thanks Jenelle for being the best big sis!

Let's get this party started!

2011-07-13T01:26:00.000-07:00

On Sunday, July 10th we celebrated Londyn's 2nd Birthday by throwing a big bash in our backyard! We had a little over 30 guests in our backyard, with beautiful weather and delish food!

Family...

Friends...

Gifts...

and CUPCAKES... make for a fabulous celebration!

Thank you to all who were able to make it and support our little Lulu. We are so blessed to have you in our lives!

BIG girl!

2011-07-08T00:41:00.000-07:00

Today was Londyn's 2 year well child check with our favorite pediatrician, Dr. Rollins. The appointment went the same way it has since her first checkup after leaving the hospital. She cries and screams over every little thing... stripping down to her bare bum to be weighed and measured, the thermometer, stethescope and even when looking in her ears and mouth. She just wails. Londyn hates the actual exam but loves when our doctor asks her to do things to see where she is at developmentally. She loves showing off for Dr. Rollins with her head, shoulders, knees and toes... how she can dance and jump and how when asked how old she is, she says "3" ... (we're working on it). Dr. Rollins told us that Londyn is right on track, physically and developmentally. The most fabulous part was that Lulu is completely up to date on all of her shots, so we were able to leave with a sticker and a smile!

As for stats, Londyn weighs 31.4 lbs falling in the 92 percentile, is 36.8 inches in height in the 98 percentile and for her head circumference, she measures 19.5 inches in the 93 percentile.

Translation: She is one big whasian girl!

Lulu's 1st Haircut

2011-07-04T21:30:00.000-07:00

Londyn's hair has been kinda scraggly lately, so I decided to work with what little she does have... and give it a little shape. She was an absolute doll and loved getting her haircut! (or maybe it was watching Elmo, while sitting on the kitchen table?)

Before

After

She loved looking at her "new hair" in the mirror.

Independence Day 2011

2011-07-04T21:24:00.001-07:00

I love Independence Day! It is always a beautiful day, filled with sunshine and love for our country. Andrew has taught me so much about the meaning of true patriotism and I am so blessed to have him as an example of that very quality in our home. Both Andrew and I have very courageous and honorable men in our family history that have served our country, fought for our freedom and impacted American history. This day is not about setting off illegal fireworks or the best technique in barbecuing ribs, but it is about our founding fathers, the Declaration of Independence and the Constitution. It is about freedom and the sacrifices that have and continue to be made for this great nation. God Bless America, land that I love.

Londyn turns 2!

2011-07-04T21:06:00.000-07:00

My Dearest Londyn Joy,

I can't believe that two whole years have flown by since you joined our forever family. I am so blessed to have your sass and flair in my life. It is never boring when you are around and you always keep me on my toes!

So many milestones have passed in your second year. You are chatty, silly, cheesy, a smarty pants, very loving and the best snuggle bug. You absolutely love going to the park and ask to go at least 3 times each day. Your best friends are your cousins. You were extremely social as a baby and now have become very shy in front of strangers. Your favorite foods are mac n' cheese, broccoli, cucumbers (minus the peel) and carrots. You love treats and ask for them daily. You often want a "baba" (sippy cup) and run to the drawer and grab me a cup and lid, followed by the request "jew-milk" (aka juice milk). We never know which one you want, juice... or milk. If we get it wrong, you make it known. Your answer to everything is "no" or "no, mine". When I ask you how old you are, you say "three." I then say, you're "two" and you say "no"... I then say "yes, you're two" and you count "two...four...nine!" You love rough-housing with Daddy and soak up any chance you get to spend time with him. You often say, "Where Daddy go?" and then quickly say "work". You absolutely love music and dancing! You know how to somersault, tap, kick, bounce your knees, jump and gallop. You are going to love starting dance lessons in the Fall!

Your personality and special Spirit blesses us each day and I am so honored to be your mother. You are constantly teaching me what life is truly about... family. Your love and need for me is something I have always craved. It never gets old when you get hurt and cry for me or when you jump up and down in your crib after waking up, ecstatic to see me. Your middle name "Joy" was an inspiration as you will forever be a joy in my life.

Happy 2nd Birthday Lulu-baby! I love you unconditionally.

Mommy

*****

Londyn's birthday was filled with all of her favorite things! The day was all about Lulu!

Good Morning Birthday Girl!

We started and ended the day with two different parks. We got to play in a huge water feature and have a picnic!

We then went to a pet store with lots of animals to pet and hold. They even had a turtle roaming around the store!

After a 3 hour nap, we took LJ to Red Robin. She had her fav, mac n' cheese!

Now for the drama... our waitress put balloons behind her ears... she wasn't quite sure how she felt about that...

They proceeded to sing Happy Birthday... she still wasn't sure...

After the song... she decided she didn't like it at all. Not one bit. She was screaming hysterically, and the good parents that we are... could not stop laughing.

It took them giving her a stuffed dog and some snuggles from Daddy to calm her down. She finally ate a few bites of her ice cream sundae.

Happy 2nd Birthday Lulu!

Lulu Moments

2011-06-22T21:39:00.000-07:00

We've had lots of sun these last couple of days and so today I decided to head to Snyder Park for some fun in the water and sand! To our dismay, it was pretty cool weather with a breeze... but, that didn't hold Lulu back from digging right in!

I don't know where Londyn learned this but she started plugging her ears today. She thinks it's hilarious and is still figuring out how everything sounds when she plugs her ears and then takes them out. Who knew that selective hearing could be so dang cute?!

Armitage Reunion

2011-06-22T14:44:00.000-07:00

We are still recovering from our fabulous Armitage reunion in Michigan! We got as many families as we could in attendance, and had a blast! Our days were filled with food, sun, lots of activities... and more food. We made memories that will last for a lifetime!

Our flight departed from Portland around 7am and after a layover in Minneapolis, we finally arrived at around 5:30pm in Traverse City, Michigan. Londyn was a trooper, although she was adamant that she have her own seat and since she won't be turning two for another week, we milked the free airfare! She kept saying "my chair, buckle and SHARE!" Her new thing is sharing... meaning, everyone should share with her!

Andrew's oldest sister Steph and her husband Doug welcomed the whole fam damily into their home. We invaded their home with 7 little ones, big meals, lots of laughs and lounging around.

Isn't he cute?

Doug is a rescue swimmer for the United States Coast Guard. We are so lucky to have such an awesome example and hero in our family! He took us on a tour of the air station where he works. Everyone loved it!

Embarassing moment... LJ's diaper was so full, it just fell off... and she didn't quite know how to feel about it.

My favorite activity was hanging out at the lake. We got to check out the dunes (which I was pretty impressed that I climbed) and play in the water. The boys were crazy enough to take a swim in Lake Michigan. Us girls just stuck our feet in the water. The kids had a blast!

We got to explore downtown Traverse City, visiting lots of little shops, downing some bomb burgers & fries and then walking off the calories for a couple hours in the beautiful sun.

One of the main reasons for our visit was because Andrew's oldest nephew Tyler graduated from high school. I had never met the Lathrop family and had so much fun getting to know them! The Lathrop boys were always goofing around with Londyn and she ate up all of their attention.

We are so grateful to have gotten to celebrate Tyler and his graduation. We got to attend his grad party and partake of Doug's "crack"... his famous mint chocolate brownies.

As most know, my favorite thing to do is eat out and when on vacation, it was a dream come true! We got to try several yummy places. Here we are at the Blue Tractor. Delish!

Traverse City has the most amazing community park I have ever seen. Needless to say, the kids were in heaven!

We love and miss everyone so much and look forward to getting together with everyone next year!

23 months

2011-06-02T10:35:00.000-07:00

I can't believe we have almost made it 2 whole years with our little sassy pants! This last week, Lulu has really given us a run for our money. She is constantly testing us or throwing a fit because she isn't getting her way. I miss those fits when she would just whine and maybe cry a a minute or two. Now, if it is even a tiny little issue, she throws her entire body on the floor or even into the door and kicks and screams, saying "NO!" over and over again.

Oh the joys of parenthood.

It's even more difficult because she is so dang cute. It's really hard to be tough when she rolls her eyes and gives you that impish grin when she's standing in time out.

We love our little stinker, but boy is she T-R-O-U-B-L-E!

OMSI

2011-06-02T10:09:00.000-07:00

My sister-in-law has a family membership to OMSI and invited Lulu and I to tag a long for a fun day of exploring and playing. I wasn't worried about Londyn enjoying it because she loves to just GO, go, GO! She loves her cousin Kyler and he is so good with her. He really protects her and makes sure she is okay. Thanks Bec and Kyler for a fabulous day!

Fashion Forward

2011-05-26T08:10:00.000-07:00

Lulu's sense of style.

Juggling Act

2011-05-23T10:22:00.000-07:00

I have been working on a fun project for several weeks and I'm super excited to publicly announce the launch of my little business! I am getting in on the hottest hair trend, feather and tinsel hair extensions! They take just minutes to install and add color and flair to your hair without damaging your hair with chemicals or heat. The celebs are doing it, some of the Young Women in my ward have them and now, I have them! Wish me luck!

Here's my business blog! Fab Feather Designs

This week I am also starting another part-time job, doing on call customer service for a merchant processing company! BUSY busy BUSY!

You know...

2011-05-23T10:08:00.000-07:00

I know I already did some bragging about my husband yesterday... but I just can't help it!

You know your husband loves you... when an hour before church starts and you're getting ready, your blow dryer decides to DIE and he runs to Walgreens to make an emergency purchase so you don't have to go to church looking like a hot mess!

You know your husband loves you... when you're lying in bed at 9:30pm, getting some work done on the computer and you randomly mention that for some reason- top ramen sounds delish... then about 20 minutes later, he brings a steaming hot bowl of yummy Korean ramen and a beverage on a platter for you to eat right in bed!

I love this man more and more everyday.

Spring...kler!

2011-05-22T08:39:00.000-07:00

Last year, for Londyn's 1st birthday- Grandma Milne gave LJ a Ni Hao, Kai Lan sprinkler but she wasn't a huge fan of water back then, so we haven't been able to use it until now! We had some super sunny and warm days last week, which definitely called swimsuits and sprinklers!

When Daddy got home from school, he found us girls in the backyard! Londyn LOVES her Daddy!

Two peas in a pod!

"MELMO!"

2011-05-22T08:27:00.000-07:00

Last weekend, a friend was giving away FREE tickets to see Sesame Street Live. Of course, I jumped right on it with Londyn's obsession with "Melmo". Andrew wasn't feeling the 1.5 hours of enduring the fluffed and feathered "entertainment" so Courtney and I took the kiddos to see the show, while the guys stayed home- ordered pizza and worked on their car project. Needless to say, Courtney- being 8 months pregnant, and me- anxiety prone, were exhausted by intermission and the kids were done. They loved the music and dancing but with them being so little, could only last so long! We headed back to the Adamson's where we found the guys doing whatever they do in the garage and we vegged out on the couch for a good hour.

Adamson Shower

2011-05-22T08:15:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, I got the chance to throw a baby shower for our favorite family, the Adamson's! They are expecting their second baby boy in several short weeks (we're pretty sure he's coming any day though)! It was a family shower, so spouse's and kids were invited to come to the party. There was no measuring Courtney's belly or guessing what kind of chocolate is melted into a diaper... but it was a circus theme with Costco dogs, a bounce house and friends!

We are so excited for the upcoming arrival of Brecken Adamson and can't wait to meet the little fella!

Food

Bounce House

Face Painting

Gifts (AKA lots of bottles!)

Friends

I love this girl!

The Mr. was super amazing and helped me ALL day with the shower! He got up early to clean up the yard, ran to the store for last minute items (without me even asking!), helped me set up, grilled the hot dogs and even did all the clean up!

I love this man.

Baby Mama

2011-05-14T07:00:00.000-07:00

LJ is such a lil' mommy these days. She is constantly caring for her baby dolls. One morning this week, I was getting ready for the day and when I peeked out to check on her I noticed her doing the itsy bitsy spider with her baby. She then asked her baby if she wanted to watch "Melmo" (Sesame Street). Also this week, I saw her doing Head, Shoulders, Knees & Toes with one of her babies. It amazes me how she naturally has such a mama bear instinct.

I love my baby mama!

FUN in the SUN

2011-05-14T06:53:00.000-07:00

This week we had two fabulous days of sun! Obviously the weather is not totally cooperating with my plans for spring, which include sun bathing, gardening and lots of playing... which all include sunshine that isn't always around. But, when it comes for a visit- we are all over it!

This is Lulu's favorite toy at Auntie Nell's house. During the Winter, she would drive it around my sister's house but I'm pretty sure it's meant for riding outside in the sun!

Londyn and I spent almost 3 hours at Woodhaven Park on Tuesday with her friend Addie. It was SO nice! This park has the perfect play structure, including 3 slides. Whenever we go to any park or play area, LJ just goes down the slide about a bazillion times. It also has a whole sand pit with tons of trucks and toys.

So if you haven't already noticed, we are totally and completely ready for Summer to arrive! Notice how I jump on putting Londyn in tanks and shorts when the Sun shows itself? I can't wait!

Mama's Day

2011-05-09T08:55:00.000-07:00

The Mr. gets an A++ for a job well done on Mother's Day. This was my third Mother's Day (including the year Londyn was in my belly) and let's just say, Andrew's getting the hang of it! On Friday and Saturday, he couldn't wait to give me gifts from him and LJ. I got two framed photos with beautiful poems!

On Mother's Day, I got breakfast in bed, unlimited Diet Coke privileges (without hazing), off dish duty, a delish truffle at church and complete and total pampering all day. Andrew treated me like a queen and I can honestly say it is one of my favorite holidays now! I suppose it's a little selfish to make Mother's Day my favorite holiday, but sometimes I feel like with all the hustle and bustle... the things I do get overlooked. But that's not the case and Andrew made that very clear!

To finish off a fabulous day, all the men in my family made a delish surf n' turf dinner for their ladies. We had yummy salmon fillets, brisket, Andrew's famous grilled asparagus (so delish), baked potatoes, salad, rolls and lots of homemade desserts! They did an awesome job! Aside from such a tasty meal, I was really grateful to see Andrew and my brother Eric do all the dishes and cleaning up after the meal. Clearly, I married up.

Now, I can't wait for Father's Day to return the favor!

Cannery Night

2011-05-07T15:10:00.000-07:00

For Mutual this week, we had a joint activity and filled orders for the ward members at the cannery. I was excited to go because I had never been! My brother Kevin was in charge of the activity, and as always- he did an awesome job! He turned it into a competition and like I even need to say... the leaders won, filling 157 cans!

Anyway, it was hard work but really fun! I will definitely be going back to can food for my own family!

Lucky Aunt

2011-05-07T13:21:00.000-07:00

At about 9 this morning, I had this really strong feeling to check online and see if my niece Kamry had a track meet scheduled for today. Kamry is one of the Beehives in my class that I teach and I love her so much. Londyn and I changed out of our jammies and headed over to SHS. Kamry was awesome and got 3rd place in hurdles! I am proud of her and glad that Londyn lasted long enough for us to stay and cheer Kamry on for her event!

This is one of the reasons why I love being close to family because I can watch my nieces and nephew grow up, watch their talent shows, track meets and dance recitals. I am a lucky aunt and Londyn is a lucky cousin!

MY cute peeps

2011-05-07T08:39:00.000-07:00

I know I'm her mom, but seriously... this kid is the cutest!

Londyn's spends hours, and I mean HOURS during her day taking off and putting on her clothes and shoes. She concentrates so hard and wants to be able to do everything mommy and daddy do!

Along with the cutest kid, I have the cutest husband. Here he is taking out LJ's piggy tail before bedtime.

"lookin' like a fool"

2011-05-07T08:29:00.000-07:00

"Lookin' like a fool, lookin' like a fool... lookin' like a fool with your diaper cover on your head!"

While I was cooking dinner one evening, I looked over and found Londyn doing the usual (her own thing) with her bum cover on your head. When I asked her what it was doing there, she laughed and just left it there. Silly girl!

Big Helper

2011-05-07T08:19:00.000-07:00

Helping carry in groceries...

Running away with groceries...

Eat. Pray. Love.

2011-05-06T10:50:00.000-07:00

So I'm creeping up on two years since I gave birth to the almost 10 pounds of Londyn Joy. Having struggled with an eating disorder most of my adolescent life, let's just say the 60 lbs. I gained while prego was a tough reality to face. I look back now and really should have cut back on the 20 piece chicken nugget runs... countless times a week and probably should have thrown out the words "super size it" from my vocabulary. I have always LOVED food and it is one of my many struggles as I also have a really hard time accepting my body in the way it was given to me.

Between my teenage years and now, I have popped almost every diet pill on the shelves, tried strenuous diets- including no carbs, hormone injections and prepackaged meals. It even got as ugly as not eating at all or the worst, binging and purging.

I am finally starting to get a glimpse at how unrealistic the bodies are on the covers of People & Cosmo mags. To aspire to look like those women would be to forget everything that I am about. I would not be able to focus on my family and be the best me. I would spend too much time living for just myself, rather than for my husband, daughter and Heavenly Father. It really is a tough world out there and as I teach the Young Women in my ward, I am constantly praying for them to see what I didn't see in myself at their age.

A couple week ago, I started the Weight Watchers lifestyle. Now, I say lifestyle because I don't feel like it's a diet. I am eating everything I would normally eat but with more of a healthy perspective on what I am putting in my body. It is more of a game with all the points and I feel like I am winning! I officially weigh less than I did when I found out I was pregnant with LJ. It feels good to be back down to a healthy weight, but my body will never be the same. Things just aren't where they once were. A song that comes to mind is, "One of these things is not like the other..." haha

Anyway, I am going to continue being active, thinking before I eat, drinking diet coke whenever I feel like it and most importantly, enjoying life without revolving it around food and numbers on the scale!