My anxiety and excitement for Zoe's arrival has been growing so much this last week. I have been stressing about decorating what is now the play room into Londyn's new bedroom, so Zoe can have the nursery to come home to. I have been overwhelmed with the clutter and curent state of my house... so much that I text my mom the other night saying, "I need a new house... mine's too messy." I don't think the nesting instincts in the 3rd trimester mesh too well with my anxiety. Hence why I have laid in bed for 1-2 hours these past few nights, thinking about all of the things I need to do... that I have no desire to do at all.
It's a strange feeling to be excited for Zoe's upcoming arrival. Like any other expecting mother, I am excited to finally meet my baby. But on the other hand I want to keep her safe in my belly forever. She is healthy and happy right where she is and in some odd way I feel guilty for wanting to have her here with me. Guilty because of what I know she will have to go through when she does arrive. She will endure more suffering than some children do in an entire lifetime. It's a battle to be excited for that. I know she can't stay in here forever... but everyday when she's kicking and moving in my belly, I am so blessed that I can at least protect her for the time being.
“For God hath not given us the spirit of ; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.”
2 Timothy 1:7
Like I have mentioned over and over again, all of our medical care has really fallen into place. Some of the most fabulous news is the opening of the new Randall Children's Hospital. This hospital is a new and improved version of the children's hospital where we have been seeing all of our specialists and plan to deliver, followed by Zoe's heart surgeries. The Randall Children's Hospital just happens to be opening in February, just a couple months before our baby is born. When watching these videos about their beautiful facilities and the love they have for the entire family involved is such a relief as this place will be Zoe's home for the first month of her life.
I am so excited to attend the grand opening celebration of the Randall Children's Hospital!
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Saturday, Feb. 11, 2012, noon-6 p.m.
FREE family fun
Bring family and friends to tour our new home.
Grand-prize drawings for family trips and more
Low-cost bike and snowboard helmet sale and fitting
Kids Fest on 9
Music and entertainment
Kite making and photo booth