I've lost my noodle!

I tried to trick you with the title of this post, because this is... yet another one about my current eating habits (AKA diet).

Shall we start from the beginning? After Londyn was born, I have been a roller coaster of motivation in getting back my body. In the beginning, I was determined and after 54lbs of success, I got ahead of myself and indulged in my old ways. All the while, I still had work to do.

This isn't about the number on the ugly step-scale reading what I want it to, it's feeling comfortable in my own skin. This desire lead me to jump back into the work by starting the Atkins approach. Atkins sometimes gets a bad rap from those that know little about the program because it involves a high-fat intake. To clear that up... the low carb system replaces carbs with protein, greens and fat. The fat is burned instead of carbs. Period. I started this new lifestyle 11 days ago and have lost 6 lbs. My appetite has decreased immensely, I crave water constantly and I'm more energized. But am I satisfied? I still have 5 lbs to lose and I will be back to my pre-prego weight. As much as I used to think that number mattered, I have been thinking and that's not the answer to my satisfaction. No matter what I weigh, the same as before or even less... it won't be the same.

My body image has always been a struggle for me... especially through high school. But, after having a baby it is even more of a challenge. Am I the only one in this boat?


Erin said...

NO!! Enough said. I have told you this before you are beautiful and although I know how many times I say it you won't believe me! I know because I am the same way. But I love you just the way you are. :)

Laura said...

I think you look so fabulous!!! It's so hard trying to eat better (this is coming from the girl who ate 8 sugar cookies the other day) I guess I shouldn't be giving advice :) You really do look so good!!