Today I started thinking about the change that has taken place in our home. I don't know if it is because of the holidays or the tragic news, but there is more warmth and love in our family. I started to piece together what I think is the answer.
A little over a month ago, I was released from my church calling as Beehive Advisor in our ward. I had been in YW's for two years. Needless to say, it was VERY hard to break up with the Young Women's organization.
The last few months of my calling, I was struggling with Andrew being gone at school and work all the time, while trying to attend my meetings/activities/visits to the girls with Londyn in tow. I was starting to doubt whether my time was up.
It was the day after the YW's President and I had figured out a solution that I was sadly released! I was so bummed and couldn't understand why I had felt so rejuvenated with our new plan if I was meant to be released. As pathetic as it sounds, I was in a funk... feeling out of place in my new calling as a Primary Teacher with Andrew.
Over a month later, I love being in Primary and most of all, spending Sunday's with my husband. We have so much fun with the kids in our class and I love seeing how much they adore Brother Armitage. A calling I wasn't so sure about, has become such a blessing to our family. My husband's absence during the week was extremely hard for us and having this extra time together at church has brought us so much closer together.
This all leads me to my next thought... I was bitter when I was released from my calling, because I didn't have all the answers. With the now overwhelming condition of our baby, there is no way I could have juggled my calling in Young Women's and be an effective leader. My sour feelings have now turned into gratitude, and I hope He can forgive me for questioning His divine intervention.
Heavenly Father always has a plan for us and we just have to have faith that it will all work out. His plan for our new baby is truly divine and unlike most, just as most trials begin without understanding... become beautiful blessings.
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Kacie - I love your thoughts and insights! When I read the last sentence of your post I couldn't help but be reminded of the song
"Beautiful Heartbreak" by Hillary Weeks. The song says exactly what you are saying! It is an awesome song that brings me to tears every time I hear it!
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